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B- I just wish I knew. I wouldn't be so upset if I just knew. C- I love you. I know you want me to get help, but this is part of my therapy. Please don't stand in the way of it..and I'm sorry I rely on you so much. Dad- I wish you could just trust me. I know we don't have the best history together, ...

What are yours? I know it's easy to get wrapped up in day to day life where everything is a constant stressor; tests to pass, bills to pay... I read in a psychology magazine recently that it was good to write down the things you enjoyed doing when you were little (before the creativity was stripped ...

I moved... went to rehab... disowned 99.9% of my friends. no dice.. still screwed up

1. Name: Jamie aka James 2. DOB: 4-23-84 3. Birthplace: nashville, tn 4. Current location: franklin, tn 5. Eye color: blue 6. Hair Color: it's going to be blond by next week, but naturally a weird reddish black 7. Height: 5'5 8. Heritage:scottish, irish, indian, aaaan whatever barbados is 9. Piercin...

Even though I'm striving to improve myself..it all goes back to you. Why cant I stop this madness Why didn't I wait one more year. Why did you have to be so sick in the head? I can't help but feel that for 10 years I have done nothing but put myself on a path of destruction b/c I could not fully liv...

ok. really dude? You barely talk to me for 2 months. miss my birthday , all over something stupid. you continue to read all of my blogs and send me a message of support and "hope i have a nice life.good things are ahead" umm... i thought i was supposed to be the younger, irresponsible one here. what...

:star: I'm worried that I won't find a job soon enough and everything I've worked for will go out the window. :star: I'm worried that I will never be complete, eternally lost and alone and wishing for something that will never happen in a million years :star: I'm worried that what I've hoped for for...

C- 2 days in a row. I can't believe that you've done this to me again. You play poor pitiful you b/c you feel minorly depressed and lazy and have to fix a leak in your roof. I respond to you telling you how I'm here now' no car, no job, no friends, no life...not even a cig, diet coke, martini, anyth...

Its like the tears are there but they won't come. I'm angry, upset.. cutting myself off from everyone. But maybe thats a good thing. Its gotten to complicated. I feel like a horrible person and it has to stop.

J- I fucking despise you right now you cowardly piece of shit. I have every right to be angry at you and you pull this shit where its like you get to be the one graciously walking away??? Fuck that! You had a blackout. You were out of control and put pornograph on only to tell me that you like looki...

Possibility by Lykke Li There's a Possibility There's a Possibility All that I have was all I'm gon' get. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm There's a Possibility There's a Possibility All I'm gon' get,is gon' be yours then All I'm gonna get is gon' be yours then So tell me you hear my heart stop You're the only ...

:star: I'm worried that C is messing around with someone :star: I feel worry and guilt b/c I sometimes stay at my male friends house (even though we don't do anything but watch tv) for the safety of not getting a dui since typically we have a couple of drinks..still feel like an asshole. :star: I'm ...

Frustrated, Confused, Stir Crazy, Lost...

:blkstar: I realized that doing so was not going to make my feelings go away for good. :blkstar: Instead I talked about it instead of bottling it up. :blkstar: I wanted to show myself I could cope without :blkstar: Like drinking, its only a temporary fix :blkstar: I didn't want C to feel responsible...

I actually have 4 persons in mind right now... C- I so badly want to trust you right now. I feel guilt because of my previous actions..and yours. I love you with all of my soul, but you have to know how horrible this whole situation looks. I've been with you since I was barely 20..you were 55. That ...

At the moment it'd have to be Alexisonfire's 'To A Friend' I'm thinking that it's time to get out My patients are fading fast mind bruises just a little bit easier Dark times and shadows cast What are you suffering for? Your pride or some kind of personal war? And will you throw it away? For nothing...

I'm feeling extremely tired,lonely, and unmotivated. I'm feeling like a failure due to the inability to kick this drinking issue in the ass. I want so much to feel alive and not just knowing I'm alive because I feel the pains of living.I'm hoping this is just the day after guilt/remorse cycle, that ...

*I wish I was more financially secure *I wish I were thinner *I wish I didn't hate myself so severly *I wish I wasn't such a big drunk *I wish I could go back to school *I wish C would spend more time with me, work isn't everything *I wish I was more confident *Sometimes I wish I could just leave an...

What is your secret? I've been binging and purging nonstop for the last 2 weeks and even did it at my bf's house last night Why is it a secret? because its embarassing..it will hurt other people What are your feelings about this secret? I feel like shit about it. If i could just control myself and ...

I tried. I'm fucking putting everything on the line here. My freedom, my life, my sanity. And an hour passes. no response. I am terrified and angry. Do i pursue this further or drop it? Do I give it more time, or will i be more drunk then and lack reasoning? *sigh*I've wanted you so bad its nearly d...