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Whyd you leave me H? Whyd you let me get like this? YOu were my best friend...

i amazingly havent yet, but im very tempted to. very very tempted.

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? itll make the emotional pain go away... what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? it will bring relief and take away the emotional pain how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is h...

i know what you meant by saying you wish you had been throuhg this so you could help, but really, you dont. i mean, that would mean losing a friend. so you really dont ewant to go through this. im just going to go lie down and probably sleep. maybe.

i mean...ive lost friends before...but iwasnt expecting this one. this wasnt expected at all. and i dont deal with feelings. i just dont. i dont want this to build up, which is what its already doing. augh, i just dont know what to do... :cry: oh, and thank you for at least posting. :) its nice to k...

well....i just found out one of my friends killed himself. damn, this day just keeps getting better...so ummmmm how the hell do you deal with the fact that your friend killed themselves?

maybe drawing or writing might help. or think of a funny moment and keep replaying it in your head. alot of times, i find myself looking at the things on the walls and rereading everything to distract myself. or jsut studying really close and following the patterns.

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? it wont but i know im getting what i deserve what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? i deserve it, so justice i suppose how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself ...

have you taken care of your physical wounds? not really. i dont even care to. what had happened just before? i thought about my past, and some things i miss and can never have back what were you thinking and feeling? i wanted to stop thinking about the past, i was a bit numb why did you end up hurti...

thanks it helped

Since I can't actually cry:

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? Ill fel ok for a bit how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting myself likely to get me closer to or farther from feeling that way? i want to stop feeling so panicky. yes, usually does if hurting myself seems like my best ...