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no one, especially not me, gives a damn about me anymore. *sob* now feeling selfish and stoopid.

thanks love, hugs to you too

disappointed. left out. want someone to care.

moo thanks love, probably gonna try sort something out...itch itch itch. so on the verge right now... hope you feel better too

i am... lonely itchy I am not... happy sure about therapy in a good place right now I feel... deserted forgotten desperate I want... someone to care and for me to let them someone to know without me having to tell them I need... to be honest in expression to be recognised I have... work to do no pla...

wow. that's heavy. i'm sorry.

maarg. much much work to do - gotta start on my thesis and i'm too preoccupied with SI urges. arg. can't even think what work i've gotta do...

Been trying to avoid SI-ing but the urges are getting uber powerful. ARRRRRRRRRGGGGG!!!! and now i've just seen a mate of mine, also a friend of my ex's, and she's got plasters on her fingers from punching a wall. Concerned for her :( also more desperate than before seeing how good it looks.... itch...

really really dizzy aaahhh. have to cycle to uni...this should be fun. hope i don't fall off and get hit by a car ah the melodrama... but seriously dizzy dizzy dizzy...can't afford to go to a doc eithre and i have to study. eek.

i'm worried that i'm not going to get into Psych honours. How do i explain that i can do this - i am a walking textbook of various diagnoses and have experienced more than most (sorry 4 arrogance) :oops: but when compared to fellow students, well most are pretty sheltered. I might not have all the t...

sad. i have a burning sensation in my gut - probably adrenaline every time i stop working. I feel lost and vulnerable - i feel like a child.

I can't take it anymore. I've spent over half the day crying. Things are just too much. My family forgot my birthday as did my friends. I got the flu for my birthday last weekend though. Not that anyone cared. Today my grandparents who I live with to help them out wont stop yelling at me... well my...

wow you are already on the right path if you can see and understand these things. I believe that everyone can understand and learn from themselves and that no one can forget how to see themselves when they are sad. I dono if I am making any sense but I just want you to know that things will be ok. ...

i am... part angie. part me. hurt and borken but healing and strong. I am confused. self-conscious sad exhausted i am not... confident or brave. I am not emotionally young. i feel... hatred - I hate confusion. i want certainties inspired by this site i want... love care attention to be able to speak...

everyone is so positive. I live in a country of contradicitions and extremities. They are extremely poor and some excessively rich. My idol is Angelina Jolie, the only celeb I follow (religiously - i might add (shamefully)) :tongue: and I want to be like her saving the world - but for me it's throug...

I feel safe in this wab board with other SI-ers. I want to live in this world where everyone seems to feel similarly to me. I want to crawl into this space and onl emerge for the necessary. No one in my world gets it at all. I'm so tired of living in this outside world of pretend. zzz. and yet I hav...

your so kind and helpful but I hurt you every time i do this. I'm so sorry. I wish you could see how sorry i am. and i love you. I hate that I do this that I don't want to stop, but that it uhrts you every time I do this. I don't know how to help me and you... I don't want you to leave...

What is your secret? *SI warning*!! I SI'd again - but it wasn't my usual style - and I'm proud of my destructive achievement. I broke my wrist after hitting it for half an hour. Oh and I love this cow :) :disco: Why is it a secret? I'm supposed to try and stop. Oops. What are your feelings about th...

ow fuck ow. haven't been back here in a while and love the support people here have - it's got such good energy. But wow, triggers eeek very freaked out. arg. sob just wish this would all stop. and i don't want to stop. fail.

heheh lol that's cool i like it