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SplinteredGirl wrote:great post. i can really relate. last time i slipped thats exacly what was going through my brain...

thanks! that's very reassuring, that i'm not a nut, and that you feel the same, and that you think it was great thanks, you've made my day

hmmm...i can't remember - i think it did at least for that day, but i think i ended up SIing a couple days later anyway cos stuff happened, but certainly for that time it did...

thank you, i know yr right, just hard to keep perspective; thank you tho

what is ip?

i didn't want to be near him for a while. will my anger destroy this relationship? will i ever let her go completely? will i ever forget about it?

that's really hard, i have a similar situation, but my bf is a bit better at handling - hate doing it to him tho. is there any way you can talk to him about it, tell him what it's about - make it more understandable and less "oh my f**K, what the hell?!" ? ask him to do some reading up on it...? goo...

tnx all

tired, overwraught, overfaced, over everything

heaven forbid - the fray

"your falling apart and tearing at seams"

^ yay glad i'm not the only one who thinks this

gorgeous

thanks sp, hugs always good Ness, eee thanks for the kind words love. nice to be loved when my brain thrashes itself for SI. thankee hun hope yr well too?

stupid me slipped a couple of days ago and now i want to do it again. and after all the stress of fighting it, i wonder what's the point? it's not like it actually harms me in any permanent way...so i say screw it. or maybe i don't. i don't know. phnarrrg. my brain protests.

What is your seceret? I slipped, badly, and i feel better for it Why is it a secret? i can't let ppl know thta i feel better for something that hurts them What are your feelings about this secret? I love cutting and i shouldn't so i guess, guilt, shame, embarassment Why are you telling this secret n...

thankee

off to gym to burn the crap outta this urgy feeling. i've decided; if i still feel urgy afterwards, i'm not gonna bother arguing with my head anymore. i suck. sob.

ta, yeah i've been to their site, thought we should have more of them

i have nooo idea where to post this so it'll probably be moved somewhere. sorry if it's in the wrong place. Anyhoo, i was thinking, being so urgy and having processed and done all the right things, and still being urgy (grrr) that SIing is so much like a drug, that i wondered if there should be reha...

a tad graphic... please beware of triggers. what do you do when all you've been doing for the last 2 weeks/months/days etc... is thinking about cutting and not doing it? I've held out for so long (well long for me anyway :oops: ) that i've gotten into a habit of putting it off, listening to my feeli...

hmmm. good question... i think the first thing was a stuipd convo with my bf which upset me, but didn't want him to feel guilty about being honest, and don't want him to feel that every convo will set me off so bottled stuff up. then left therapy because so frustrated at not being able to speak at a...

this is true, but it's still damn impossible to shake this "my tummy's to big" sensation arg. hate this thing.