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I haven't sied for a couple days . I delayed until my T appointment and delayed afterwards too and didnt delay ... I cant get rid of the urges though, they never leave... their even in my freaking dreams!! *screams*

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will not feel anymore. I will have my concentration back. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? Bring: concentration/numbness how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurt...

I do not want to get better... I want to stop eating... I'm afraid someone will try to stop me. I remember the day I started this "diet", it's been over a year and a half... no one knows when it started, I remember the day. do I really have an ed? is it possible?... i think i do... that scares me s...

To let another person in... this is why I do not want to call for help, why I do not make an appointment to see a t, why I'm doing this on my own.

unable to cope

"I Can't Do This" by Plumb I woke up late. Guess I'm never really early. I hesitate, Only to fail. I get so tired Of procrastinating. I need a change. I can't do this. I can't do this. I can't do this by myself. I can't do this. I can't do this. Oh God, I need your help. I'm standing still, Moved so...

I had a good attitude at work.

"Never Alone" by Barlow Girl I waited for you today But you didn't show No no. I needed you today So where did you go? You told me to call Said you'd be there And though I haven't seen you Are you still there? Chorus I cried out with no reply And I can't feel you by my side So I'll hold tight to wha...

i got to do a solo dance thingy in a dance we learned

not alright, overwhelmed, down, hurting

If they still haven't found someone maybe bring that up to them calmly. Maybe tell them that this is important to you. Tell them that you don't want to wait. Do some research about T's in your area. http://www.psychcentral.com has a search thing where you can find T's in your area. Show them your re...

low, mentally exhausted, like I'm an idiot, selfish

"Strong Enough" by Stacie Orrico As I rest against this cold, hard wall Will you pass me by? Will you criticize me as I sit and cry? I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won Only to find the war has just begun Is He not strong enough? Is He not pure enough? To break me, pou...

I wish someone would notice and just get me help, so I didn't have to do it all myself.

I wish my mom would be happy.

I wish I could be perfect.