bus

Yeah, I'm working on trying to find some distractions for me. I still have a little urge, but nothing I can't handle. I made it through, and now I'm heading to bed. I took a drive, returned a movie, got coffee, watched TV, exercised a little. Now... I wonder which of those actually helped hehe. Now ...

I changed the title because I haven't SIed... and am feeling slightly better, still very urgy, I don't have a tool right near me so I'm not likely to follow through with the urge

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? thoughts will shut up what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? i won't feeling fing worthless anymore, i'll forget for a little bit how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurt...

embarassed
very very nervous

*goes into a corner and covers eyes "you can't see me"*

anxious, stupid because I didn't start my homework sooner

sad... but hyper

First off WELCOME TO BUS!!!!!! Secondly, I'm sorry you've had such a rough time. I can empathize about the feeling like you need to be perfect, I don't know if mines labeled compulsive... but I definently flip out if I don't say or do something to my standards. I know what you're going through. If y...

you don't deserve it hun.... you're doing the right thing trying to resist

like a burden
angry that I haven't started my homework

I want to cut so badly. how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll get my anger out. I'll feel complete. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? Get my emotions under control. I don't know. how do i want to feel about this in...

I didn't want to get caught