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"The Way She Feels" by Between the Trees (for the most part it does)

*bursts into tears*

alone, urgy, anxious... i need to oh i need to

If you want some fun songs I suggest some songs from Enchanted... yeah I know it's a Disney movie... BUT ITS THAT GOOD!! I got the soundtrack, it's that good. A relaxing song on the soundtrack is "So Close" by Jon Mclaughlin, hum... some other songs... well depends if you want slow songs well I'm no...

*hugs* I think you can get through this, maybe you should take your advice *hands you some tea*, if you need to talk you can PM me

Nevermind, I'm too worried I'll use the pen to injure myself.... there are ways my friends there are weird ways to injure yourself... heh... I grabbed some playdoh though, and it's pink *squishes playdoh*

I haven't... I should try some of those. I really dont want to do the ice cube thing when it's really really cold in my house already lol. I'm looking for a red pen right now.

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. no, i'm about to cut some more... trying to delay myself what had happened just before? talked to some people, nothing really what were you thinking and feeling? apathetic, unfeeling, angry, depressed, annoyed why did y...

*hug* not sure what kind of response you'd like, just thought I'd pop in and say I read... I hope you are doing better

it hurts... i want it to stop... anger err so much anger... i want the hurting to stop

trying to be... so very urgy, anger... anger = extra urgy... if i wasn't scared about my mothers reaction i'd punch a wall.... i'd like to cut my arm... not being able to do that is stopping me right now...

After have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. no, im watching the blood flow right now what had happened just before? been delaying all day... last straw: friend said she wanted to cut... i was like man i think i'll actually do it... ive been wanting to all d...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? ill be numb, i need to be numb what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? ill be numb, i need to be numb, i need to forget, i need to get away, i want the hurt to stop how do i want to feel a...

ive heard of pica before, cant remember for the life of me what kind of ed it is... can you explain more about it? take care!

anxious anxious anxious, numb, empty

Some rewards I've tried:

-> made myself a bracelet, crafts are fun as well as a reminder that I can do it
-> took my dog and me out for icecream
-> sticky note on mirror of things I like about myself, that one really didn't work out

If you still remember them, go on ahead and post them... you still have them in your memory so they might need to come out.

Thats sounds like that is why you had that dream. You felt like you were out of control. I think it's a great idea that you started this thread.