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I really feel sorry for you. It's not nice, but it's true. I hope you're better off than I give you credit for.

I understand what you're going through more than I can tell you. Rather, I *could* tell you, but I wouldn't, because you don't know me that well. I just don't open myself that much, that publicly anymore. Not when we have a mutual friend, and I have no idea what you think of me in the first place. I...

I don't know if I ever told you how much it meant that you were there for me when my dad fell ill. Whenever I think about that time in my life, I always wince a little, but I also remember how kind and patient and loving you were towards me, and that memory is always a pleasant one. I don't know if ...

I have listened to the voicemail you left me seven times. What you said-- I really needed to hear it. I thought I'd said absolutely the wrong thing in my email a couple of days ago, and it's really good to hear that I.... didn't.

You matter so much to me. <3

There's lots of times that I beat myself up for not being like you. And I know you'd be amazed and horrified at knowing that. Seriously, you amaze me.

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I have THE BIGGEST intellectual crush on you. SERIOUSLY. I'm in awe of how you think and what you know and what you've seen and where you've been. I want to BE YOU. I wish I were half as smart, empathetic, funny, and pretty as you are. I envy the way you carry yourself and how comfortable you are wi...

I didn't like the default either, so I changed the board style to one of the other ones (in your BUS profile screen). Is there one that is easier on your eyes?

what am i missing on bus by not having firefox? just wondering how i would change to firefox and how that would affect my overall web viewing More for general internet-ness than BUS, but... -it is faster than IE -there is an extension that can block ads (I seriously never see ads anymore) -it is ea...

I have greasemonkey, but all the greasemonkey scripts I've found either don't work or are dead links.

Does anyone know of a (currently working and install-able) userhide or ignore extension for firefox? I've checked all the old links and even googled it, and I haven't come up with anything.

Thanks in advance if you are able to help!

Welcome to BUS and to B&A!

You did some really good work here! I definitely understand that feeling of battling the feeling being tiring. But it DOES pass, and the less often you give in, the easier it gets.

Take care.

I am angry at you for edging me out of your life.

because i knew doing so would make the urges worse.
because i knew i'd do serious damage, and I didn't want to have to go to the ER.

I fucking hate you for doing what you did and planting the seed of self-doubt in my head. Fuck you. All these years later. Fuck you.

I would really like to write you an email about all the stuff that's been going on in my life because I know you'd understand.

However, I don't want to intrude.

I wish you could open up to me.

I miss you.

I took the dog for a walk.

I talked it out with my roommate.

I think we have a lot in common and I'd love to get to know you even better. I wish you could be more open with me.

(not online)

FUCK YOU for writing that. That was SO NOT HELPFUL and I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. Your writing style sucks big time.

Even though you're dead, you're still an asshole.