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you're one of my best friends but i feel like i'm losing you

- You're going away really soon and I don't think I'll get to say goodbye before you go. I don't even know the date you're going. You say best friends but I can't believe you, I just don't understand why you'd want to be best friends with me. Parts of the person you're becoming worry me because nobo...

you promised me. I needed someone so bad today, just someone to come and talk to me and rescue me, but you just sat there with your parents and ignored me. I told you I would really need your support out there and you promised me you would be there. I know your parents don't like me but we've been f...

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You're so fucking ignorant sometimes. I wish you'd wake up to the world around you.

stop trying to control her. I know you love her but you have to let her live her own life and make her own decisions. I've been friends with her for a long time now and you won't change that if I can help it. I dont know why you disapprove of me all of a sudden. You can continue trying to act like I...

Don't worry, its happened to everybody. Its just because of maintenance thats Debs doing on the board. Theres more about it here:
http://buslist.org/phpBB/viewtopic.php?t=98048

i always feel like i have to prove myself to you. because i'm pathetic compared to you and you will realise it and then you'll be gone. it feels like we have nothing in common. im worried that whatevers kept us close is fake and its going to dissolve and you'll be gone

i don't want to go. you don't think i'd be safe here alone but I'm not sure I'll be safe away from here right now. but i can't tell you because you'll make me feel guilty and then use that to make sure i don't object again.

You asked me to get the address and I got it for you. And I will send an email too just like we decided the other night. But a part of me doesn't want to. I can't lie to him like I did last time. Last time there were a load of other people around and he didn't have much time so I smiled and I lied a...

i miss you. i miss how things used to be

you hurt me tonight. but at the same time i enjoyed myself because before that it felt like everything was back to how it was before.

S - I'm sorry. I would be more supportive, but a tiny part of me wants to hate you for it. I'm jealous because you survived and you've come out completely unscathed. You're so happy, you have so many friends, you've got everything I want right now. And you're saying you wouldn't change a moment of i...

i worry about you and i cant tell you

I can't compete.
I can't even try
I'm sorry that I'm not more interesting

can't you just be normal for once?

i'm not ok. you think i am but i'm not.

sick
scared
guilty
angry
worried

but can't you see that I'm trying my best to cope but I can't? I am trying so so hard to stay calm and happy and not react, but I just can't right now. I have no place to go to get out of his way so he takes it out on me and should be the mature one and walk away, but all I want to do is scream and...

i hate when you ignore me
and i hate when you only get in touch when you need my support
i hate that when i need you you're never there.
but i still care

I used to have a big problem with anger, as I think you know I still sometimes have trouble controlling my temper when something pushes me too far. Tinks__shadow suggested having something to play with in your hands. I'd reccomend that too. Maybe a stress ball or worry beads or something like that, ...