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I'm tired of seeing the hurt in other people's eyes when they see that I've messed up again and cut.

I'm scared that I don't know if I really want to get better.

i am...alone

i am not...happy

i feel...scared, sad

i want...to cut

i need...a hug

i have...to do laundry

i love...Shelly

i hate... myself today

I DON'T WANT TO BE BABYSAT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!


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I'm worried that everyone is going to be disappointed in me for losing my job. I'm worried that he's going to lose interest in me and move on. I'm worried that my therapy session will go badly and that she'll judge me or I will freeze up. I'm worried that I've built these walls up too well and I won...

I'm scared that my family are starting to realize how depressed I am.

i bought stuff to make an emergency box with. I'm actively trying not to si.

I want you to know I'm sorry for what I put you through. I realize that it wasn't fair for me to expect you to take care of me. I've learned from this whole mess. I'm going to get help.

I love the volcanoe idea!!! So much fun. I've never really heard of the cornstarch one but I like it. Thank you for those ideas, they are all really great!

Your back’s against the wall There’s no-one home to call You’re forgetting who you are You can’t stop crying It’s part not giving in And part trusting your friends You do it all again And I’m not lying Oh oh oh oh ohh Oh ohh Oh ohh Oh oh oh oh ohh Oh ohh Standing in the way of control You live your ...

I loved the sticker idea. It made me laugh.

I was wondering if you have any reward suggestions for not shopping. I have a serious shopping problem(spending hundreds in a day) and I am trying to stop. I don't know how to reward myself for this in a non-spending way.

I'm proud of myself because I got up and went to work when I really wanted to stay in bed all day.

I'm proud because a resident said that I was her ray of sunshine and I made her feel great when I smiled at her...I never thought I meant that much to people.

I am grateful today to have a book that is really distracting and I can't seem to put down. It really takes my mind off things.

The last time I wanted to SI I didn't because the guy I'm seeing was here. I couldn't do it and risk upsetting him.

tags to copy/paste: What is your secret? I have been making myself get sick after eating. Why is it a secret? because the one person i told freaked out on me and I haven't been able to tell anyone since What are your feelings about this secret? I hate that i do it. I just don't know how to stop. I c...

I hope to feel happy again one day.

i am... barely myself alone trying i am not... going to succumb to these feelings stuck here i feel... alone unwanted sad empty i want... to be myself again to feel loved i need... someone to hold my hand help i have... tomorrow i love... my family my best friend i hate. myself sometimes feeling so ...

I'm worried that he doesn't like me the way I like him

I'm worried that I won't get along with my new therapist.

I'm worried that I won't ever feel like myself again

right now I feel very lonely

I'm greatful for the guy I'm seeing. For once I feel like I can trust another person. He said he wants to see me happy.

I'm also greatful for my job in a nursing home. When I see how I'm doing something to improve their lives, it gives me a reason to live.