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I didn't hurt myself.

I was able to criticize myself without getting urgy.

After You Beat an Urge How do you beat your urges? Examine how you beat the last one so it can help you beat the next one. Did I identify what feelings were leading me to want to SI? Yes If Yes - What were they, and how did I figure them out? Loneliness. I felt alone like nobody wanted to speak to m...

I exercised.

I sent out a post card to a friend and a bon voyage card to an aunt.

Thanks. I'll check the Sourcebook list of distractions out.

I'm feeling really good this morning. Really calm. Like this is the feeling that I've wanted to feel ever since I reached the age of consciousness 37 years ago.

That's what scares me.

If you can't be with the one you love, love the one you're with.

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait... It was just a scratch. But it was enough to get me calmed down. what had happened just before? I was vacuuming. what were you thinking and feeling? A lot of things. Mainly that even if I cut nothing would change as fa...

Calm

I vacuumed.

I saw a movie I'd been wanting to see.

I threw out some more stuff.

I got some books ready to go out to the printer...

I cleaned my bathroom vanity

I threw away junk mail

I sent a post card out

I sent out another three postcards.

I did the rubber band thingy and it worked surprisingly well.

relaxed

empty, tired, but not really wanting to sleep

I emailled a colleague

Procastinating

I completed my second sucessful hall-of-fame trip with my father.

I wrote a six page double sided letter to a friend.

Because I told myself the bad thoughts would go away. I took steps to make those bad thoughts go away. And they went away.

I figured out a new way of coping.