bus

right now i feel
...
useless
tired
and
bored
and
anxious
and thrilled........

i don't know what i feel

And when it rains, On this side of town it touches, everything. Just say it again and mean it. We don't miss a thing. You made yourself a bed At the bottom of the blackest hole (blackest hole) And convinced yourself that It's not the reason you don't see the sun anymore And oh, oh, how could you do ...

i need to cry again
i just want to punch something
and scream...............

i am... -smart -trusting -loyal -talkative -naive -realistic -loving i am not... -another stupid prep -a slut -gangsta -skinny -beautiful i feel... -helpless -loving -loyal -tired i want.. . -perfection -jhp i need... -my best friend back -my confidence back -my blanket -the future -the past -a tut...

i am... -smart -trusting -loyal -talkative -naive -realistic -loving i am not... -another stupid prep -a slut -gangsta -skinny -beautiful i feel... -helpless -loving -loyal -tired i want.. . -perfection -jhp i need... -my best friend back -my confidence back -my blanket -the future -the past -a tut...

i am... -smart -trusting -loyal -talkative -naive -realistic -loving i am not... -another stupid prep -a slut -gangsta -skinny -beautiful i feel... -helpless -loving -loyal -tired i want.. . -perfection -jhp i need... -my best friend back -my confidence back -my blanket -the future -the past -a tut...

im scared that every mistake i make will never leave
i feel as though i don't deserve love.
i feel that anyone who loves me will leave me because im too difficult

i need to cry just to be able to show this pain i feel and maybe move on. i cry when im alone. i cry around people i trust but when i do i feel weak and way too vulnerable i just need to cry with someone's arms around me. :1cries: :1cries: :1cries: :1cries: :1cries: :1cries: :1cries: :1cries: :1crie...

trigger. you mean so much to me. you complete me and you get me. and you were getting better. you were almost there. everything you worked for was. all of a sudden goen with one stroke of a razor blade and now you're back onto that path and i just want to take everything off your shoulders but you w...

i hope the stress goes down.
i hope everything turns itself around
i hope i dont lose my best friend to something self inflicted.