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This is a great idea! I think I'm just going to make mine a "box of happiness". I found some little sparkly nail decals in jars. Being really inexpensive I got quite a few and they make me smile even if I just look at them and the shapes in them. This got another thought going for me, I have a spare...

"Lights" - Ellie Goulding I had a way then losing it all on my own I had a heart then but the queen has been overthrown And I'm not sleeping now the dark is too hard to beat And I'm not keeping now the strength I need to push me You show the lights that stop me turn to stone You shine It when I'm al...

i am... -sick -tired -hurting physically and emotionally i am not... -ok -fine i feel... -alone -lost -confused -trapped -broken i want... -to give up i need... -someone to challenge the masks -someone to care enough to know i'm lying when I say I'm fine -love i have... -more questions than answers ...

I miss you constantly... I need you now. I don't know how to keep going on without you. I love you but I dont know how to tell you. Im scared of losing you. I need to say it, but dont know how... I would rather live like this, loving you and not knowing how you feel about me, rather than risk losin...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It won't change, but i will be able to get through it. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will bring new scars, new guilt. It will take away my being SI free for so long. how do i ...

I feel sad I may be losing the one I love though I never really had him.

I love you more than anything else in this world and I dont know how to tell you. I think we could make it work because we both want the same thing, but I don't know that I can really allow myself to love you knowing I am losing you.

Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? It won't change the situation, only the feelings. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation...

have you taken care of your physical wounds? yes what had happened just before? It wasn't about what happened just before... there were a lot of things all day that lead to it, but right before I had been talking to C and he was ignoring me to watch tv what were you thinking and feeling? From earlie...

Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? The feeling will change a lot. I am hoping I won't feel so down. That I will just feel calm. what will hurting myself bring to the s...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? The situation won't change. Just the feelings will. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will bring calm and sleep. It will take away my 10 days. how do i want to feel about this in ...

Have you sat and figured out what you are trying to get out of it? Look at some of the reasons why and there is a thread somewhere about ODing and peoples bad experiences with it.

Someone gave me the idea of a paper chain, but they thought it should start over. I just thought that would discourage me having to start over. I know I don't SI more days than I do now and I thought at the end of the year that would be awesome to have this huge chain. I want to decorate the links i...

I know some people reward themselves with things when they haven't cut. Things like stickers on a calander and stuff. I am going to start a paper chain and if I slip I am just going to start a new color paper rather than start over. That way I can see something that will be really inspiring to me. D...

I started eating habanero peppers when I want to cut. It pushes all other thoughts out of my head because they are just so hot. Capsaicin produces the sensation of fire in your mouth. When the fire hits, your mouth sends a signal to your brain that signals the release of endorphins. Just wanted to s...

I feel dark, numb, and kind of empty.

Why do you visit before and after? I want to explore why I SI each time. I know the reasons I do can be different depending on what I am going through and looking to get out of it. What do you get out of it? I actually learn a lot about myself and have learned other people SI for some of the same r...

I'm sorry that I yelled. I'm sorry if I upset you. You really upset me too. I care about you more than I can tell you. I'm not the person you think I am. I am not so cold and callous and heartless. I have a heart. I have feelings, and you've seen them get hurt. I can't be totally open with you beca...

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