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I love you. I can't believe you're gone. Why'd you die? It's not fair. I hate the drunk asshole who caused your death. You deserved so much better. You had so much to give. Why did you have to go?

I'm sorry that life is so rough. I'm sorry that I'm not there for you. Please hold on. Please - I know I can't handle losing you. Just hold on.

I miss my mommy - not my mother - but the mommy that actually cared about me. The one that loved me for who I was - not worried about me all the time. The one that never hit me and cuddled me when my father did. I miss that mommy. Why'd she change.

You say you want me to communicate more. I've tried - really I have. I set aside time for you every night to talk - I give, I listen. But lately, you seem to be ignoring me. Quit sending me mixed messages. I can only give so much - but if you keep shutting yourself in your room, I'm going to stop tr...

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I'm worried that I won't pass my grad school classes.
I'm worried that I won't ever fit in at my job - and that I'll live in Germany for two years with nothing to show for it.
I'm worried that someone will find out my secrets.
I'm worried that I won't ever be truly happy.

Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel more on top of my emotions. I will be able to handle the hurt I'm feeling and the homesickness better. what will hurting...

I hope that one day I can accept myself as I am.
I hope that I tell him how being molested has affected me.
I hope that I can tell my mom to back off.
I hope I find true love again.
I hope that I find someone who will accept me for me.
I hope that I change the world for the better.