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Maybe holding on to the fact that feelings change and sometimes lessen without SI is really important.... You can't change how you feel but you can choose how to respond to them. SI urges are always there at the moment, I hear that, but when you give into them you just fuel the fire, maybe those wil...

Glad to hear you were able to not hurt yourself. Hope the urge passes soon.


I get the scars aesthetic thing. Anything else that can give you that? Tattooing or something?

Hey, I thought this bit was interesting: I had already decided to hurt myself. Is there anything you could have done before that, either to reduce the option and therefore negate the need to make a decision? Or, did you do a good pros and cons list? Just so that decision is informed and not as impul...

I love that inner protector idea

A lot of them are anonymous, you wouldn't have to give your details. Is there any coping mechanisms other than distracting yourself that you have? Distraction is great, but sometimes pushing things away just mean they come back. Is there any kind of relaxation exercises you could use? Sometimes I us...

Hey,

Sounds like you can think of some really good reasons to not hurt yourself. I hope sleeping helps.

Does it help to try and label your emotions more? Sometimes when I know what I'm feeling that helps me manage it better.

I'm cheering you on. You're trying really hard, thats all anyone can ask for.

Yay she sounds marvellous

Pleased to hear things are levelling out for you. I can really relate to being angry with others around SI, the first few years after i stopped hurting myself i felt the same. Luckily it eventually passed and I do it for myself now, but I still get it from time to time. I'm like its my body! Its not...

Hey,

Sounds like you used lots of great coping skills to cope with the urge. Liked the way you called and asked for help too. You should be proud of yourself

I like two beds and a coffee machine too. I've given up on them releasing a new album though.

She isn't really around anymore. When I spoke to her a few months ago she was doing well

Sleeping sounded like a really wise decision in that situation, sometimes we all need a break. Well done for getting through the urge without SI

treasure wrote:good work, moon raver

Agreed

I'm going to be really annoying and say that even though you *feel* dirty and unclean, that does not mean you are dirty and unclean.

Hope this has passed now

Sounds real tough mate. Memoires are a bitch. I'm going to be annoying and say that si isn't going to make you any cleaner, it just might help you get further away from that feeling. Which is clearly very appealingly, but in the long run .... Is it really going to be worth it? I think you can sit wi...

. but our life history is never totally eradicated, is it? I can feel like others own me and I have to behave, and there's this opposite caged animal reaction. So easy to respond on some level to these old feelings... Even though we have the skills to manage similar situations. Doesn't seem silly, ...

No worries :) I was wondering about pure o, using what sounds like mindfulness to manage those thoughts is wicked. Lives can be ruined with those types of thoughts. . but our life history is never totally eradicated, is it? I can feel like others own me and I have to behave, and there's this opposit...

control, controlling by being destructive in a way that puts other people off. Scars that are not pretty. Being in control and in a way pushing people away? Do you feel other people are being a bit close/instrusive atm? Just wondering if you did want distance between yourself and others whether you...

If I didn't typically hide it from S, then I'd say maybe it would serve that function. Yeah fair play. Sorry for misunderstanding. Glad you are feeling better today :) yay for getting through the urge :) but said that he needs to be able to express what he's feeling too without being afraid of how ...

. It's a pipe dream I'd love a pipe dream :roll: . Strange how in contrast not hurting myself feels like heavy deprivation. Yeah. Maybe SI would have more of the impact/consequence that you're looking for? Don't suppose there is anything else that serves the same function as SI? I also get discoura...