bus

quite low
dizzy
lonely

quite sad

I still do get scared that I'm nowhere near good enough and I really need reassurance at times.

like I have failed

I. can't. take. anymore.

secretly i hoped they were there to lift you last night, i thought you were getting what you deserved. i was wrong as usual though

why the hell were you fucking ringing everyone yesterday.

I am so frustrated right now.

numb

triggered

I'm worried about my health at the moment.
I'm worried that things are just getting worse again.
I'm worried that I'll give up on these courses before I properly start them.
I'm worried that I won't cope anymore.

Anxious
Teary
Sore

Quite unsafe
Exhausted
Confused

im so fed up with everything.

Please don't say things like that which make me panic and hyperventilate.

I really really dislike you now for reasons beyond my own control, everything you are doing really pisses me off.

feeling like ive done something wrong

Anxious anxious anxious

Really anxious about later
Nervous about tomorrow
Worried
Ill