bus

I don't want her to see new scars on me when I see her

I'm feeling really sad and alone.

I'm going to reply to some emails from friends and then make jewellery to distract myself.

I'm worried that I'm falling again

C - I think it's really selfish that you won't even give it a chance, what you lasted 5 days and came home again. That's just wrong. I would give anything to be there now.

I got through my first session with a counsellor at a rape and sexual abuse crisis center even though I was terrified.

You seen me in such a state on webcam. I still can't breathe. I can't stop shaking. I'm still sobbing and you are talking about your internet explorer. Do you even care about me?

I lost my temper with my dog and I feel terrible for doing so.

I just want to be comforted. I just want a hug.
Why don't i deserve that

I literally can't take this.
My heads zoning.
I'm so fucking anxious I can't actually breathe.
Just stop it all now.
You know what you have done.
I can't take it.
I can't.
I'm already fucked up enough about tomorrow without you making it ten times worse.
Just stop it now.
Please

I am so close to hurting myself right now.
You know I don't deal well with things being like this.
Please stop.
Please?

I thought you meant it

Stop hurting me. It makes me breakdown.

annoyed
lost

I'm worried about my first counselling appointment tomorrow

sad

Do I look so thin that I look ill?
I think you're wrong mum. They wouldn't have thought that.

abit anxious

Stop walking around outside my window with a chainsaw. It's freaking me out. Stop it asshole.

sore
sick
upset