bus

Do not assume that all mothers are like you, because they aren't. They don't let their children live with a rapist for a start. Stop fucking demanding money off me. YOU AREN'T GETTING IT. And blackmailing me with my post won't work either. Just fuck off, give me space tonight. I'm close to losing it...

It still hurts

anxious
upset
tearful

Thank you for being so nice to me today, it meant alot and I enjoyed this afternoon with you. If only you could treat me right all the time mum. But thank you for showing me a sense of normality this afternon anyway.

broken

I am at breaking point now and no one notices.

too upset to function normally

Do you think I will ever be able to set foot back in your house again? Not anymore now, because I'm not good enough in comparison and I won't ever be. It's just made that feeling ten times worse again.

Arghhhhhh leave me alone?!

gone

I'm sorry for letting you down. So sorry.

Like a failure,
Disappointed
Upset
Anxious

Thank you mummy for being proud of me, for saying you felt at ease with me in the car. Thank you for telling him that you didn't want me to go out with him in the car tomorrow and that you would take me instead. It meant more than you know to have you understand that and not force me to go with him....

Get out of the kitchen and leave me alone.

Z - I lied to you yesterday when I told you that I wasn't. I am, and I know you could tell I am. I'm sorry but I'm too weak to do this, I can't keep pretending that I can. I can't take the power back, it's gone.

ARGH!!
It's not fair, I can't be expected to do 3 peoples jobs, christ, I've only been here a week!!

That hurt really deeply.

Please just get it over and done with now and stop fucking tormenting me. I can't stand the fact I can hear you whistling in the next room. Either do it, or leave me alone tonight. Please.