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I cut again. Second slip.
So sorry.
So angry.
So depressed.
So ashamed.
It's not worth it. Why do I keep going back, though?

I'm crying for my sister.
I'm crying because I can't help.

So many secrets. Where to start?

Upset. Angry. Alone. Worthless. Reallly worthless.

Take a hot bath. Turn on some nice music. Call my T if things don't clear up. Try to cry. really cry.

Alone.
Insignificant.
Worthless. Bad. Stupid.
Alone.

Thanks for your encouragment! I really appreciate it. I know I need someone in my life--and that is my T but sometimes I just feel so alone and last night was just bad. And I know I am not alone...I have face to face people who help and who I can call, and I have my internet support. Sometimes night...

Hey... Some of you might have noticed me around...I've been in and out. I need some help. I'm on my own in my struggle, except the support from Bus. But its been a real down month for me. School has started, I'm stresed out that, I slipped and cut again (I was six and half months clean). I'm feeling...

Hey that's awesome, two weeks! That's a big hurdle!

I took a couple psych courses and stuff, also an addiction couse, and it was mentioned in some ways. First of all, when the body reacts to pain the brain sends out endorphins-the bodies natural painkillers. These painkillers are considered the brain's own opiates (morphine, heroin, opium). So when t...

i wanna cut. badly.

I want to give up everything. Six months-who cares about the six months? I'm a cutter who doesn't cut except in the mind. I feel like I'm hypcrite.

I feel like I don't belong anywhere.

My dad got really angry at me. My mom just cried. Haven't talked to them since about it .