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I'm working on homework and not procrastinating (well, most of the time...not all the time ).

Where do I go???

Why should I stop?? SI is a dance...sometimes you lead sometimes you follow. Right now I'm following....

I don't know how to talk to my Dad. I just hate him so much sometimes and other times I just feel so guilty around him. Why? Why this? Why all the nagging and the double crossed messages? Why now when I don't need any more stress?? WHY don't I have my knife...........????????????????

I feel like SIing really bad....I'm shaking with the thought of it.
I want to punch a wall. I am feeling so frustrated and sad and guilty....

I hate my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I like that idea pelagic about the sting band thingy. I really like that idea. Thanks!

Thanks everyone. I really appreciate this. I am sooooooooo glad I am not alone. Sometimes I feel really weird and wonder if I am the only struggling with this issue. Really glad I am not alone... I like the idea of a nice lotion. I haven't thought of that before, but it would be nice to do that ever...

Yeah. I kind of like the idea of exercising (am doing that already) but not so sure of the idea of a tat (that would be triggering, I'm thinking). But what I'm struggling with is having an immediate reward and a long term one (the scars). I just wish I could find some stuff that would be immediate y...

Well....cutting has a reward system going on. You have the immediate "high" and then you have the scars that remain. So I'm trying to quit cutting but not having a reward system is hard. Like, I am trying more and more to do stuff for myself but the rewards are short term (like having a nice bubble ...

Do some of you SI because its like a reward system? (Do you know what I mean?) When I'm talking about SI, I'm talking about cutting and the scars that remain. That's a reward system for me, so I am just wondering if anyone has found ideas to have a "long term reward system" so to speak. Any suggesti...

I gave my tools away.
Last night I prayed and God gave me strength to not hunt down another knife or call my T out of bed for my tools.

I want to cry

I've been a getting horrible marks in my psychology (72) and I just want to scream. My five out of seven pages of essay that I was working on was deleated after a school computer glitch.
I want to cut!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm so scared.

Angry. Alone. Broken. Cold. Depressed. Enough is enough. Fed up.
So angry at myself. So sad.

I'm hating life. In a downward spiral and can't seem to get out. The thoughts keep shouting at me but everytime I focus they leave. I just want to cut. I want to get my supplies back from my T. Nothing works. I hate this.

My tools are gone---

Hey. I slipped a couple days ago and went through the honeymoon stage (I am never ever ever going to cut again, ect) but now I'm back in the face to face conflict. I'm feeling pretty down and I know that this is normal and I gave away my tools but the temptation is so strong.... :bsad: Any suggestio...

Simple Plan "Welcome to my Life" This is sometimes how I feel espicially when I was in the midst of the habit. Do you ever feel like breaking down? Do you ever feel out of place? Like somehow you just don't belong And no one understands you Do you ever wanna run away? Do you lock yourself in your ro...