bus

You aren't worth blunting my tweezers over nor ruining my razor

Thank fuck for getting wasted to give you a better perspective on things

Mike, my dearest, You were the one who was a total cunt to me on Sunday night and you admitted yourself you didn't know why you upset me. And then on top of that you call me a bitch, call me names and tell me you want to end it. I have to leave our home to stay in a hotel because of you. You have th...

I'm worried I'll get used to him not being here, yet again...
I'm worried he won't come back

I'm worried he's going to lie about why he's moved out and not take responsibility

I'm worried of what I'm going to do to myself once this bottle of wine is finished

:omad: :hmad: :omad: :hmad: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: :argggh: I do something dramatic and change my whole look by dying my hair back to my natural colour and completely change the style and all you can do is look up from fixing your dad's laptop and say "Oh" the...

I fucking knew I was right about you!! You fucking 2-faced back-stabbing bitch!!!! No one will EVER match upto your fucking standards and no matter what you do to me or say to me, he will ALWAYS take you side and defend you. From now on, you will not step foot inside MY flat if I am here, you will N...

I haven't been paid so I can't afford to do fuck all for my 21st and I'm furious! My boyfriend is a sanctamonious fucker who is so two faced it makes me sick!!! He harps on about being open minded anpd accepting yet treats me like shit...he thinks that I'm making myself worse and there surely MUST b...

The fact that my Dad went through the same feelings as I have and came out on the brighter side and is now living life to the full. I tried to stay focussed on that for the past 2 weeks but the urge overtook me only 20 minutes ago. My dad told me to listen to "Shine" by Take That and said this is ho...

You always told me to tell you if you, in any way or form became like her but it isn't that easy. You make me feel so low sometimes, it makes me wonder if you would ever miss me as I seem to be nothing but I burden. I love you but you make it so hard to tell you how I feel. It's like the roles of ou...

Seeing my dogs Milly and Ozzie

Waking up to my boyfriend kissing me on the forehead

The smell of freshly cut grass (it gives me horrendous hayfever but there's just something about that smell that cheers me up)

Hearing the words "I love you"

Stripey socks

Paddling in the sea

xxx

I hope that one day I can stop comparing myself to everyone else

I hope that one day I can give a positive answer when asked a question about myself

I hope I make it to my 21st next month

Most of all, I hope I wake up tomorrow morning feeling better than I have done today

I'm worried my boyfriend will leave if I continue to SI
I'm worried I've set my expectations of myself too high
I'm also worried I'm pushing help away when I need it the most