bus

I'm too afraid to tell them. Though they might have figured it out already on their own.
I'm just too scared of what will happen and how mad they'll be.

Yeah, I'll do another one right after next time.

I could try to do some writing instead next time. Might be helpful.

Well it's because of the summer vacation now that I have a lot of opportunities, more than normally at least. I'll be a little more busy when school starts.

Even though it's a little late I thought I'd make an after thread (was very busy after I made my before post). I'll go by thinking back to previous cuts etc. It might not all be exactly how I felt last time, but more generally. have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'...

I will try that the next time. Thanks a lot for the suggestions k!

Thanks for the reply K! Well I have terrible self-esteem and I feel like I am worthless, thus deserves punishment for every mistake I do. Or everything that I do wrong, say wrong, etc. That is the reason I believe I deserve punishment at least. I have tried some of them, but I have not made my way t...

Before You Self-Harm how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel "released" for a period of time. I will have had my punishment for being me. Thus in the long end it won't change anything. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the si...

Tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiired
Like a failure
Inadequate

You're doing such a great job Candy! Hope you can keep it up that way as well. And you know, everyone has a slip now and then. Don't worry about it too much, and it's good your therapist could you help you out with it.

You really do irritate and make me mad mom. I just can't tell you that, seeing as it would hurt your feelings

mad
unheard
sad

Hey Silver! I can relate to several things you have experienced. Like getting yelled at for doing something your parents asked you to do (in my case too, cleaning the house). I don't think my parents are as mad at me as your seems to be (it really sounds awful! How can your parents, well mom and ste...

I'm just glad I can be of help to anyone here :) Not having someone around you does make things a lot harder yes. But for me at least being around people either mean: A) I am distracted, will most likely not SI. B) Become more sad/angry/irritated/whatever because I don't really feel like being aroun...

Tired
Disappointed in myself

Hey Marylou. I know exactly how you feel (well taking away some factors, not important however), and it sucks yeah. It is like you said, one step forward - and twenty back. You always end up worse than where you went. Just wanted to let you know I read this, and I seriously hope you can figure out a...

Not happy or content with my life at all. I actually haven't cried in over half a year or so now either. Just can't cry anymore.

/cry

Just thought I'd step by and say you're doing a great job Candy! Keep going with the good work!

All I want in life is to be happy (happy).
It seems funny to me.
How fucked things can be.
Everytime I get ahead.
I feel more dead.

Korn - Dead

Sad
Alone
Tired
Weak
Frustrated
Misunderstood
Like a coward

I'm sorry I am not like my brother.

Name: David Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: Trying yeah. If so what is your motivation: I have several friends that support me, and I would like to not have to lie alle the time. Favorite coping skills: Drown myself in wow-playing, play some bass while listening so my favorite music, ...