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i dont wanna do it, i think you know that too....but your just sooooooooo into yourself that you cant see me in the corner...

....i think i hate you....

i love you soooo much...
..but i'm invisible to you
you don't see how much this is killing me not to be with you...

and as for YOU. you didn't show up again..if i can't trust family..who the fuck can i trust?

...i don't want the guy i'm obsessed with to see...but he barely knows i exist so lets see how long that one will hold me...

*DEEP BREATH* FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK I HATE THAT YOU GET THE BEST OF ME EVERY LAST FUCKING TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!...

its not my fault you failed so don't fucking hate me cz i passed! it's your own fault! i put in the work, you didn't end of! I can't even begin on how to tell you i'm sick of motherin you, i found the gaff 2months ago and you still haven't paid the depo I'm in a shitty enough state of mind as it is,...

(lang)
you disgust me, why would anyone do that to some one else?? How numb do you think i was??? Well fucker, guess how numb i am now
Rot in fucking hell you pig. now all i see is you when i close my eyes. TRIGGERS SSUUUUUUUCCCCCKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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my anti-si *talkin to a friend on the phone about anything! *my lil bro Caleb *listening to Smashing Pumpkins *writing out lyrics (this really helps me, my comp is chock of em!) * watchin a funny film wit my older bro..his laff is uber contagious!! * looking at my older scars * lying on my hands and...

lang * * * * you told me a week. one FUCKING WEEK is all it would take and i'd be outta there? Three weeks have passed bitch and i'm still fucking here!! Sure it's ok for you to fuck off on three weeks holidays. But ypu're my fucking PM!! this shit's to be sorted before you fucking go!!! I sat and p...

Grat Big Wide World- Marilyn Manson In space the stars are no nearer They just glitter like a morgue And I dreamed I was a spaceman Burned like a moth in a flame And our world was so fucking gone But I'm not attached to your world Nothing heals and nothing grows Because it's a great big wide world A...

This is to all the customers who come to my till and decide just because i'm young, I don't deserve to be treated with any respect Who the fuck do you think you are? You stand there with your fat husband and your ugly children, and expect me to pay heed to your every beck and call?? You call me stup...

Scared
Tired
Fidgety
In pain (long day at work)
Pressure
Worry
...Hope

(Trigs maybe? graphic) i first od'ed in my first year of secondary school, and the one thing that i really remember was being a little girl on suicide watch...that will haunt me forever, seein the look of fear on my mothers face scared me so much, and i hate myself for that, because I still try. I c...

i h8 my life