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People make me want to scream. and so do exams=[
He will never realize how glad i am i said yes to him.

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Im worried im going to end up SI'ing tonight and then people will find out and i will end up in the hospital.

Im worried i will fail my exams coming up.

Im worried that nothing will go right.

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? Ill feel i have control what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will bring in a feeling of control, and take away the reality of how i feel how do i want to feel about this in the long ...

Im worried that...

-My friends only like me because i put up with their crap and im their bank account

-Ill never succeed.

-He still loves her.

-People really deep down hate me.

-I will never be ok again.

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel like i have control what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will bring conflict with friends. take away my pain. how do i want to feel about this in the long run? is hurting...

Right now i feel-
Betrayed/best friend+ex=
Depressed
Hurt
Confused/boyfriend+me being pessimistic=
In Over My Head/stressed

Thanks. my friend is being difficult right now. hes treating me like im not helpful. and my other one hates me... ive needed to cry all day.

Thanks

My Anti-Si is...

Helping people. anyone really. seeing someone smile when i want to hurt myself makes me feel better. it makes me realize all i need to do is talk to someone and ill smile.

Thank you sooo much! i needed that so bad, i was thinking about it. those were awsome ideas! i made a folder about myself(because a lot of my friends dont know about my problems) and when i feel upset i write about it and keep it in the folder. i draw doodles of quotes or poems i like. or try and he...

Im proud of myself because i didnt SI even though i really wanted to.

I didnt tell of a good friend even though she was being un-reasonable(and i was in a bad mood)

To cope... i talk to friends that actually know whats wrong, talk to my moms room-mate, shes fun to joke with, play with my dogs, watch tv, or just get out of the house. Just find anything that can keep your mind off things. go to sleep if you have to or just lay down and close your eyes. my moms re...

My mom knows i hurt(past tense) but thats really it. ive only told a few close CLOSE friends. but other then that, nobody really knows about it. and id much rather keep it that way, if my parents/family found out, they would flip their lid! and i hate therapy!