bus

this is what i do when im upset over some petty shit. join in if you want :) so this is what you do. first, write out a list of things that are bugging you, everything you can think of. heres mine. my sisters prettier than me, ill always be the ugly sister. i havent had a boyfriend in so so long, im...

Ive never had a real boyfriend. I want someone to love me. Im so scared about my A levels. I cant be anything else but a vet. Why am I not smart enough? I feel im getting stupider by the minute. Ive felt ugly for a long time now. What if this is just the me now and im going to be ugly for the rest ...

I am grateful that I have BUS to turn to when Im feeling like shit. I am grateful that I have friends and family who love me. I am grateful to music for sharing my pain, but helping me feel stronger. I am grateful that this 'experience' has not made me a horrible person. I am grateful that I can sti...

I hope I get those results I really need.
I hope I can make more firm friends.
I hope that one day I can actually look in the mirror and like what I see.
I hope that I can find someone who will love me.
I hope I can cope with this.
I hope that all the shit will finish soon.

it hurts when you do that. it really does. i wish you cared. i know your ashamed to be friends with me, but if you are, dont try to make me believe we are friends. please.

i wish you all understood why im quiet. or weird. or a freak. or on my own.

lonely

isolated

pityed

pathetic

i feel like no-one cares. im worried no-one does

* * * * language * * * * you stupid bitch why the fuck is it you get some sort of radio wave into your head so whenever you see im depressed you need to make some fucking comment that makes me si. like announcing to the class that im an uninteresting person and that im always alone because i have no...

What is your secret? i want people to find out i cut. i want people to care. Why is it a secret? because when i say it or acknowledge it i feel sick and selfish. What are your feelings about this secret? i dont want my cutting to be a secret anymore but i cant find the words to tell someone. Why ar...