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i am... struggling i am not... sure what I can do to help myself i feel... somewhat alone adrift i want... a job to cope well with things i need... a hug to grow up and deal with things in an adult manner i have... good friends loving family i love... my family & friends musicals horses i hate... f...

Sick, empty, guilty.

I don't really want to get a job. I want to be able to hide forever.

I feel twitchy and sad.

I will make sure I don't cancel on seeing my 2 best friends tonight and try to eat what they are eating. Those are sensible grown-up actions. *tries to convince self*

Hi Birdie

So pleased to hear from you - how are you doing? I hope you are managing to recover super-well as before. Thanks lots for the reply. Just had a bath and will try to go to bed for some sleep now. Still tempted but hanging in there.

Love Jenni

Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll be able to give into temptation and it will stop pestering me. It won't change the situation much except allowing me to sleep, be calm...

Before: Before You Self-Harm how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel relaxed and at ease. I will feel like the inevitable has happened at last and I can sleep. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? I will be able t...

Thanks so much for replying - it really helps just to feel heard. SI does feel unavoidable as a way out when I feel detached from the world. I guess next time I should try harder to 'ground' myself in reality earlier by not staying in alone all day and letting it get to me. At the moment I'm just fi...

Comments/replies appreciated... I feel very alone right now. Hope you don't mind me asking. have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. I don't feel like taking care of them. They aren't too deep and will probably look after themselves anyway. what had happened j...

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I'm scared to come back in case it proves no one cares... so I stay away and never know whether anyone still does.

empty
and angry - but I'm not sure how I can feel both at the same time

I miss you Steph : RIP. 3 years... it still hurts.

J

Thank you for the reassurance, gui. It's really kind of you and made me feel a bit better about posting here where I haven't before. I'm a bit of a nervous fool I'm afraid :cry: Well I managed not to si last night, I talked to Miranda for an hour and she was lovely. I didn't want to talk too much ab...

As the subject title says, this is my first go at posting here. I hope I get this right *worried* how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel relaxed and able to sleep, that I got what I deserve, and that I'm in control. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? wh...

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