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i actually just tried this after having read about it somewhere else. It is kind of a benefit that i live with other people because it just makes it that much harder to get to. I just put it in an opaque container added some water and froze. although i did break down and melt the ice in the shower t...

I'm proud of myself today for making the decision to make my tool more inaccessible.

because i finally realized how badly it hurts other people, and because if i can go for a week then i get to go out for ice cream.

I'm terrified that i'm only trying to quit because it hurts you, and even more scared that once you move I'll relapse without a second thought.

if you asked me to move there with you, i would do it in a heartbeat, without regret, or looking back, i would give up my dreams for you, every last one.

WHAT THE HELL! you blow me off for him? god, ok i get it, it's new and exciting, but did i ever do this to you? i've had a bad day and wanted to tell you a story for two effing seconds and you can't even give me that? well fuck off! you know what don't come running to me tomorrow when you want to gu...

I wish i was thin
I wish i was back at school
I wish i had friends with me right now
I wish she didn't get on my nerves so much
I wish he and I could be together forever

I love him, alot more than I'm comfortable with, and yet every day I pray the it will work out and he and I can be together forever.

excited to leave, sad to be going, a little upset and embaresed at the way i handled last night and most of this morning.

you made me feel really insecure last night, am I not good enough for you?

I didn't have time, I had too much studying left to do and not nearly enough time to do it in. Plus I'm trying really hard to break this cycle.

He didn't just try to kiss me, he did, and I let him. And then I kissed him again. I'm sorrier than you will ever know. but I can't keep apologizing for something you know nothing about.

I'm sorry I had to lie to you, but I didn't know what else to do. I know how much you HATE him and if you knew you would be so upset. Just know that this is killing me something fierce. I still can't believer you apologized for giving my a hard time about the flirting, i deserved it and more if only...

I'm glad you tried to pressure me into having sex with you by withholding any physical contact because now I realize you SO weren't worth it.

you have no idea how happy you make me, and then how much I feel like shit, when I tell you I'm better, only to slip the next day.

I still love you and it kills me everyday to see you and pretend like I can just be your friend. I want more than friendship. I know we only have the summer but that's better than nothing, all I want is for you to love me like you used to.

I miss you everyday, and feel like it's all my fault, if Only I had taken 2 minutes to say I love you, mabey you wouldnt have left me. So I love you.