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Hey could you lock my old place Im motivated by the lack of doubt.? im thinking id like to starrt fresh if i start comming back nhere..

Sometimes I think I'm gonna drown Cause everyone around's so hollow I'm alone Sometimes I think I'm going down But no one makes a sound They follow And I'm alone Yeah if I make it I'd be amazed Just to find tomorrow One more day and I'd be amazed Just to see it waiting And if I make it I'm still alo...

so my ones mans sin is another mans goal is open it seems.. and i cant find my place im using now couting bodies like sheep..

wow i forgot about this.. i wonder where mine is..

sometimes i would like nothing but to self destruct, but i know how far i have come. but still, the thoughts linger, i just wonder when i will fall again

okay its ONE MANS SIN IS ANOTHER MANS GOAL

lock my place please. but im also curious. can i re-open it?

ive made it over a month no SI im getting back into my art groove i havnt been outting myself down *as much* the last few days ive gone out of my way to make sure im not alone when i start getting the *noise* in my head even though sometimes i feel hopeless and very unmotivated i have managed to fin...

sometimes these days i speak outloud to myself when i put myself down. ill say things like "piece of shit" or "just kill yourself" :oops: the other week i was talking with my bro, something about discmans, and he was all, but you have one, in that drawer dont you. :oops: the drawer where i used to k...

hiding the tears does NOT do nay good, trust me. if your in a public place and you need to cry, go to the bathroom or something and let it out. it will only hurt more to keep it in. and yes, it really does help to talk about it. strange, especially with us and SI (and others allthough not me with ed...

i love the spirograph idea! havnt seen one in years. you could try some crayons, some paints. i like to melt was crayons sometimes (if candles arnt a trig for you) some scented candles, a coloring book, a notebook to vent in. something to mold with your hands. a picture or letter of/from a loved one...

my boyfriend.
art.
friends.
not wanting more permanent scars.
the beach
cool nights

i started counting my scars and lost track. i thought about my boyfriends reaction and disapointment. i realized there wasnt really any "room" anyways.

does it have to be an avatar already?

how do i get my own picture as my avatar, like, if i want a pic to be made my avatar, do i send it to an admin?

boyfriends silly faces and silly voices.
also, being warm under the blanket
3 way spooning with my man and my cat

i went for a walk. i painted a picture. i have not SIed allthough my mother has said nothing tome today sept glare. i saw a friend. i studied a little....

some things i posted to my place last week :redstar: i dont want red scars.. im only just starting to deal with the fact my white raised scars will most likely be there forever. :grnstar: Swimming.. while i dont mind my white scars showing around close friends, i dont want fresh marks or red marks t...

i didnt SI last night i got a good sleep im dressed and not hanging out in my pjs. i plan to go for a walk i feel more at ease then yesterday i plan to see the bf, and maybe tell him how i was feeling yesterday and how close i came to SI im going to try to find ways to communicate better about my fe...

i now know i am enabling you. i can not be going to your house while you are getting high. its like saying im okay with it. but, im not. im not okay with watching you destrpy yourself. i remember once you told me, people hurt themselves in otherways to. That night i had to call the ambulance i cried...