bus

when you said i was doing so much better, allthough true, i didnt tell you i resorted to SI earlier this week. its easier for me that way.. You love me and i love you but hurting you hurts me even more then you can imagine. sorry

i felt if i was alone i may SI again, and thus, here i am at the boyfriends

fish would be really neat. i have a friend that has some angel fish and its quite the hobbie, theyre always buying new things to put in the tank like plants and stuff.

i dont have my wrsitband
the possibility of feeling even worse the next day
explaining to my bf

i fell asleep instead of SI

The other night when we were talking abut my SI and i statred crying, and telling you how sick i was of feeling so depressed, and how i felt like i was getting worse and worse.. i toldyou about those things but i wasto scared to tell you about the thoughts of SU (that i wouldnt go thrugh with) thing...

GODSmack Decisions made from desperation No way to go Internal instincts craving isolation For me to grow My fears come alive In this place where I once died Demons dreaming Knowing I...I just needed to realign Fell in a river of illusion And apathy Drowning in a self-induced confusion I'd rather be...

Ive felt like this so many times before... in the past, when it was just to hard to find another way to cope, i went to my boyfriends house, and That , (at the time)and that alone was all i could really do in my power (i felt at the time) not too. recently, most of my insentive not to SI is along th...

i re-arranged my room yesterday and freed up alot of space
i painted a picture
im keeping negative thoughts at bay
i have energy

i dont dislike you because your prettier then me..
but maybe because its so easy for you to be happy

i didnt SI last night even tho iu found my wristband im getting out of the house (or having people over) im only listening to happy music (in my case SKA) cleaned the kitchen. going to draw/paint before i get together with anyone. i made an egg sandwhich instead of eating the mcdonalds that was left...

mine ended up being drawing. of corse, i couldnt draw (at all) ayt first. so i began tracing pictures. and i would get really into making them"perfect"(this kept my hands busy) . soon i was able to draw eyes, and tripppy shapes, and eventually now i draw faces and use bold colors. i picked up a blan...

SI isnt on my mind tooo much today. i went for a short walk to the library. i actually got sleep last night.

the dead milkmen make me happy

numbed out from the fact i slipped tonight..

a voice keeps popping up in my head
"i cant do this anymore"

great post. i can really relate. last time i slipped thats exacly what was going through my brain...

thanks

i used to wear a wristband, but a couple months ago my friend had a bag ofmetal bath chains, the ones like necklaces. i wrapped them around my wrist in a kind of form of a wrist band. i really like them because it suits my style, and i have not SIed my wrist since wearing them because it takes awhil...

[size=9]i feel like choking myself badly right now..[/size]



i SIed on my leg so i wouldnt have to tell you i started again

The dresden dolls Dear Jenny Boys wear overcoats in heat like this to keep themselves from showing Girls fill out prescriptions for the tricks that keep their hearts from growing Specialists review the year in tears and call for drastic measures Send them to resorts for boys and girl to get their wi...