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I feel tired, lost and frightened.

i am...
numb
scared
angry
i am not...
happy
okay
i feel...
nothing but anger and pain
i want...
To be normal again
My family to understand
i need...
work to understand
i have...
to get through this
i love...
My mom
i hate...
my life

NOOO AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHHHHHHYY??!?!?!?!?!
I HATE THIS! WHY WON'T IT LEAVE ME!!!!!!!!!



WHY CAN'T I TELL ANYONE?! WHY!?

Lost, alone, exhausted, ignored, numb, terrified

I've been through so much already, why does there always have to be more?

I can't take it anymore, cryings all I have left.

# how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? The urges will go away and I'll be able to calm down and relax if only for a few minutes. # what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will calm me down, but I'll feel bad about it late...

confused
alone
worthless
idiotic
scared
nervous
helpless
lonely
all around horrible

JUST LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO DO IT, I DON'T WANT TO DO ANYTHING!!!!!!

irritation, frustration, misery, confusion, panic, impatience, exhaustion

In The End - Linkin Park (It starts with) One thing, I don’t know why It doesn’t even matter how hard you try Keep that in mind, I designed this rhyme To explain in due time All I know time is a valuable thing Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings Watch it count down to the end of the day The cloc...

Terrified, sad, alone, frustration

I'm afraid that if I get help that I wont be the same person afterwards, I like who I am, I just don't like what I do.

I can't trust anyone, even when I want to.

I'm into photography, I can say way more with pictures than I ever could with words. I feel at peace when taking pictures.

-Sometimes I wish I could go back to SI without all the social problems it caused me.

Where have you gone? Why haven't I seen you in a week in a half? I want to try to make thing right between us I want tot try to fix all the stuff I messed up. I hope your okay and wish that I could tell you all the things I couldn't before. I still love you, even after this time, I know you love me ...

I'm proud of myself today because I had a good time with my friends, although I did get hit with a road cone, it feels good o be back with my friends.

I think you have some good ideas for how to help yourself get through all this...but it sounds like it is unusual for you to use SI in a situation like this. Is that right? My cutting wasn't usually school related, I used to be able to deal with school pretty well. I used to get more stress off oth...