bus

dont know what do do about him anymore!!!!!


i feel a little better...

i answered the phone even though it was a night for just me and my dad...she cried for me to come over and help...she had planned to kill herself but called to say goodbye to the answering machine if i didnt answer.

i play four...soon to be five instruments...
i listen...
i make friends with people ever if they are 87 years old...(not kidding either...she passed away two years ago on holloween)

[name edited] YOUR A STUPID LITTLE BITCH WHO CAN GET OVER YOURSELF!!! THE WORLD WOULD BE BETTER IF YOU WOULD QUIT BEING THE SLUT AND THAT YOU ARE AND YOUR HEAD IS TOO BIG FOR YOUR SHOULDERS!!!!!!! GET YOUR HEAD IOYUT OF THE CLOOUDS AND REALIZE THAT THIS IS FOR MOST OF THE GIRLS AT [edited]!!!!! AAAA...

-im afraid that my sister will snap and try to kill herself again... -my sis is basically prone to postpardom depression and when i become an aunt (finally) i fear that shell take it away... -i fear that he doesnt love me anymore -i want my mother to die just to get her out of my life -i doubt almos...

i understand...i felt the same way...i wrote a story...but that made it worse for me because i wrote of what i wanted t do to myself...but couldnt bring myself to put the razor to my skin and push across...i have attempted and felt horrible...think of the people that you love...and that they would m...

tell my bf was hard...it took me three weeks to get the courage to tell him and he already knew...that hurt me...but i told him i wouldnt do it again...o week before a dance we were going to together i did it worse than ever...not just carving away but bleeding...the sadness is something i never wan...

i feel like the world stops...i borrowed a pro dress just last week and it fit me perfectly...but now about a week later...it is too big...what is wrong with e? why cant i be a normal teen again? i hae si and had and ed...but i cant erase the srars from it! i want to sit down and cry...i hurt and do...