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Thank you for the reply little bear cub. J wouldnt sit up at night and talk to me, seeing as how he doesnt know about most of my si. he only knows about the one that happened back in march when i started back up again after being si free for 2 years. He was very upset and disappointed in me, and i d...

* have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes I have * what had happened just before? I had been in bed trying to sleep. Tried the sleeping tips in coping to sleep, but it didn't work. I was irritated and frustrated and scared for a friend. * what were you th...

Welcome to BUS. Hope you find it as helpful as I have. I was in your shoes when I first joined, and here I am now seeing a therapist next week. I as well am a mother and a wife. I started cutting when I was 11, so for 14 years now. Hope bus helps you as much as it has helped me! Feel free to PM or I...

Right at this very moment in time its the song by Sarah McLachlan called "I will remember you" i will remember you will you remember me don't let your life pass you by weep not for the memories remember the good times that we had i let them slip away from us when things got bad how clearly i first s...

Good job raindreamer!

I'm proud of myself today, because I wouldn't take an appt to see a T in 2 months. I fought to get one sooner, and now I have an appt next week to see a T for the first time in 8 years!

The petting the cat one worked for me. Even after my cat had gotten up and went to lay at the foot of my bed, I was much more relaxed and fell asleep without a problem. I also have something else to add to this list if you dont mind. Whenever I am having a hard time falling asleep, usually due to th...

I am definitely going to try some of these right now. Lately i have suffered some insomnia, and dont know why. Thank you deeply for this post.

Well done Licentia!

I am proud of myself today because I worked up enough courage and nerve to tell my GP about my SI, and actually start trying to get help for it.

ok i did that and its still doing it. like i said its not a huge problem, i just get irritated when i hit reply to a pm and then have to log back in just to reply to it...lol

I was wondering something. Every time I change pages to either check my private messages, or to reply to my pm's the site keeps making me relog in. it like kicks me out or something. I have had to log in about 10 times already. no lie. I was wondering if anyone else has had the same problem as me to...

Wow you just made me feel like the biggest piece of shit in the whole world! You tell me that you're going out with your friends tonight after you fucking PROMISED me you would spend time with me, and now you say its because we've been having so many problems. I asked you if it was because you're as...

Well I'd like to be the first to say that I hope you have a very very happy birthday!

I do the same thing. Im not allowed to cut again until my other ones heal. youre not weird. I think we all have certain "rules" that we follow when it comes to si.

Name: Rebecca Are you currently trying to stop or reduce SI: Trying, but not succeeding If so what is your motivation: I want to be happy again Favorite coping skills: Right now, drinking or cutting Coping skills that work the least: Drinking and cutting Safe places you can go: Ummm....no where Iden...

I totally understand where you are coming from. Now I'm totally confused lol if that makes any sense. I see your point, and I actually agree with it, so now I don't know what to think anymore. You guys will find me doing that alot here. I think I know how I feel about something, then I hear someone ...

Well first off your therapist was wrong to laugh at you in my opinion. I think for me coping is how you deal with certain things. Some people cope with stress by exercising, others use meditation, parayer, or whatever else. Then there are those that use si as a coping mechanism. To me coping is how ...

On May 19 of 1999 my very best friend that I had known since birth was brutally beaten because his girlfriend was basically cheating on him with a few of the guys on our high school football team (she was head cheerleader too btw) and when he found out that she was at a party with them and he went o...

I hug my smail baby pink teddy bear that my fiance gave me on our first valentines day together. Over 4 years ago. Even now as he lies to me, that is still the one thing that brings me back to a semi-happy place when im feeling like i just cant go on anymore

I had gone for 2 years without cutting, and then the other night i relapsed and cut again. Then last night I did it again. Counting has in a small way helped me because it has made me realize how long i really can go without hurting myself, but at the same time things have gone from bad to worse lat...