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I had a slip last night with SI and I feel guilty for it,and I know that I should of use my coping skills,but I did not. :bcatsmile: Don't worry about your slip. I've said it before, it's a part of recovering. Sometimes we just refuse to use those coping mechanisms we've learned as an alternative, ...

My mother is getting on my nerves tonight,and she is being verbally abusive to me and it is getting to me.I will be alright cause my boy-friend is here and we are going out and even though the thoughts of SI is on my mind,I am not going to do it,cause I am not going to hurt myself,cause she is not ...

Good luck at program today, hun.... Do the best you can, and no matter what happens you can get through it... I know you can. Just come home and relax and wait for your boyfriend to get there... I sense he helps you calm down a bit?

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Can't wait! Also, don't let the pressure of HAVING to write in your journal get to you... you've got enough to deal with. If you get to it you do, if you don't.... there's always another day.

I am doing alright,I had a small panic attack earlier,but it passed by me doing deep breathing and it helped alot. I will take care of myself tonight.Have a great night everyone and I will do the same. :bcatsmile: Well slap me silly, girl, that sounds like the best affirmation in the world of self ...

I would be happy to PM you and chat via Yahoo messenger.... that's cool, I'm just usually not on messengers anymore. I was just going to tell you thank you. There's something about you that I feel really connected to, and today I needed some peace, and you've made me feel that. I'm not sure how or w...

I was soo close to do SI,again,that it took alot out of me to fight the urges,but I made it,this happen last night. I just wanted to let everyone know how I am doing. I am going to enjoy my day and make the best out of it :bcatsmile: Candy... you are my Hero for today. I am immensely proud of you f...

Good night, and may your dreams be filled with the joy of better days to come. You'll get there... you've already begun the journey. As for the advice on the journal... :lol: maybe write there first and then come to BUS, just to make sure you get it done, lol... not that we don't want to hear from y...

I am still trying to get over it and I have been in counseling about 2 years with a few months in between. It takes time to heal from a pain this strong. Absolutely... maybe on my thread we can kind of talk about this too and if anything has changed for us with the faith thing... Anyways, you're ri...

I had a great day at program today.I took a nap and then my boy-friend came over and we went visiting some friends.My other friends are not talking to me at this point and there is nothing I can do about it,but let it go and make other friends,it is not going to be easy,but all I did was stick up f...

I haven't had flashbacks, but I think about it... I don't relive it, and that's what I'm assuming flashbacks are. I do have fear of my ex-husband, and yet feel bad for him because I still carry that weight of his control over me. He did have good moments, but overall he was a bad guy. I was sexually...

I had a great night just relaxing with my boy-friend and he just left to go home and get some sleep. I will be taking my medication for the night and I will be going to bed soon.Things have not changed with my friends yet,and there is nothing I can do about it,they really hurt my feelings,but I am ...

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I ws reading about PTSD on the net and it said some bullcrap about how it usually starts within 3 months of "the" incident" and lasts about 6 months... I have to disagree with WebMD on that one... I was in a terrible relationship for 8 years, filled with infidelity, verbal abuse, alcoholism, and the...

I did SI in front of him and he did not do any thing about it,and I did not plan on him to stop me. I just feel anxious and frustrated tonight. I will be safe and by going to bed tonight,is what I need to do for myself. If anyone has any suggestions,please let me know. I just wanted to let everyone...

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,and I called a friend and went over there to visit and fell alseep there,cause the urge to do SI,was soo strong that I did not want to be alone,and I needed someone to talk to,it helped me alot I need help from people here,to get me motivated to start writing in it and to start using my other copi...

help is a tool that makes my anxiety and other emotional rollercosters cool down a bit so I can handle them. And it has been 24 fucking hours after I cut so my T. should have been more understanding. And yes, she had surgery and yes she needs to get better but it just didn't seem like she really wa...