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I want to paint my face and pretend that I am someone else Sometimes I get so fed up I don't even wanna look at myself But people have problems that are worse than mine I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time And I hate the way you look at me I have to say I wish I could start over (C...

I'm proud of myself today for not stealing razors from my grandma's house, and also for posting this on here.

I keep trying to think of something but I can't. Really sorry. I go through that too sometimes, I hope you finish it eventually. Once in a while, I just say f*** it. I get so sick of rewriting things over ten times so I just say that I don't care how it looks and it doesn't matter what others think ...

I don't know what's happening to me. I hate this. I don't know what to do n/e more. ::Cries for hours::

I hug my big fluffy pillow.

I need your support. I've wanted to tell you for so long but I don't want to bring you down like she did last year. I don't want to be like her. I need someone to talk to. I want us to be able to act like real best friends and not pretend these things aren't happening. I want you to care.

I wish I was happy
I wish I liked myself
I wish I didn't have so many scars
I wish I could reach out for support
I wish I wasn't judged by my illnesses

sad, lost, scared, confused