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furious and frustrated and its after 5am and i still can't sleep. do: get away from the computer so i stop trying to write this email in response. take a few deep breaths, remind myself my committee, my colleagues, friends and family support me and know that woman is awful, truly awful. read a scien...

ah yes, the suburbs. i grew up in the suburbs, *shudder* and i hope to never return. i don't know if this would be helpful, but- recently i looked back into "co-housing communities" to be an option someday-- i like the idea behind it, that you have intentional relationships with your neighbors, and ...

i'm worried i'm going to make a total fool of myself on my new job i'm worried i am not going to be physically in shape enough for the job i'm worried that they are worried now about how i'm going to do on the job i'm worried that my references have started to hate me and i am unaware of this i'm wo...

i feel panicked, and really angry at myself. (how could i be so effing stupid?!)

i'm going to try to validate my emotions
i'm going to try to not talk to myself so meanly
i'm going to try to do things today that make me feel capable and in control.