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Could I have my name changed again? I apologize if it's a bother.

I'd like to be StarChild, if it's not taken

My number one SI trigger is anger. It's like I want to lash out at the other person, but I can't, so I lash out at myself. I know this. But it still happens. For example, a few minutes ago my roommate asked me if I could clean the bathroom. I was supposed to 2 days ago, and I didn't do it, and hones...

Hi everyone! I am finding that winter running (when it's not bitterly cold or horribly windy or raining) has helped me a lot. I'm also using a SAD therapy light (mine is by Sphere Gadgets, you can get it on Amazon).

This is probably the best winter I've had in years, though today is a bit difficult.

You saved my life and I don't even know who you are. Strangers, nurses, doctors, techs. That awful day, so many people worked together to save me. I didn't want, back then, to be saved. But today I wish I could track you all down, and thank you, and tell you that I'm still alive, and while I still s...

I didn't end up SI'ing, if only out of spite. (I feel like "if I cut over TrumPence, then they win another battle, and I'm not going to give them the satisfaction - even if they'll never know, I'm not gonna let them win this.") The past few days I haven't wanted to cut. So that's good. I still don't...

sad, tired, frustrated, angry, pissed, outraged, and more sad.

I still hate you.

"The Harold Song" by Kesha.

Yes, I'm serious. It's an amazing song. Look it up.

I was confused years ago. I know who I am now.

I just feel like I've blown it on y'all trusting me in my identity.

I need to change some things to be comfortable in myself and I'm scared of how you will react.

At least I can be "out" online.

I saw you at the metro today. I miss you. You looked so beautiful. I think you've lost weight, you look great regardless. You were so pretty there in your purple coat. I wish things could have worked out.

My friends say I deserve better but you were the best I've ever had.

STOP.

DOUBTING.

ME.

I am stronger than you realize and just because I'm depressed doesn't mean I'm going to freakin' spontaneously combust.

STOP.

HAVING.

SO LITTLE.

FAITH.

IN ME.

Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? i don't care how it changes as long as it changes. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the ...

I miss you. I didn't even like you but I miss you.

i have gotten my first serious sponsee! I am so honored to be a sponsor. This is something I've wanted to do from day one. I'm meeting with her tomorrow, we're going to get coffee and talk and maybe read from the Big Book.

xx loki

Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll have fresh cuts which I will have to hide. And it's really warm out lately so hiding them could be difficult (or uncomfortable)...

I knew I would feel WORSE not better, in the long run, even just over the next week or so. I knew I would have way more anxiety and would feel sick all the time.

I'm telling myself this now.

i like that you wrote "I need to sit with this feeling and let myself feel it. I need to accept it for what it is, accept that I have it, and that it is uncomfortable but not unbearable." your feelings are real and valid. they show the empathy you have for others, the capacity you have to care, the...

Before: Before You Self-Harm write down the shadow that's hiding behind the urge. look at it. ask yourself: how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I'll feel pain. I'll feel SOMETHING other than this horrible emptiness. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will i...

I'm so sorry I fell in love with you.

I don't know if this is the right place to post it, but I have 11.5 days free of smoking