bus

I'm talking to a friend online instead of SIing right now

still depressed, a bit scared

I like two guys in my school and I'm too afraid to talk to them (I know it sounds realliy childish )

i am... depressed i am not... coping well with my depression i feel... hopeless and scared i want... an easy way out of this i need... to not be alone for awhile i have... strong urges to SI i love... coffee and death metal i hate... being alive only because SU will hurt so many people who love me

depressed

I'm so sorry...I know you're all disappointed with my lack of trying to get better...I can't do this right now. None of you want to see this and I'm sorry again that it's so painfully obvious

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. Yes, I had to have them bandaged by my doctor because they ended up being worse than I ment, but I'm trying my best not to pick at the bandaid. what had happened just before? Nothing spicific, but I've been really depr...

Extremely depressed and urgy to SI, confused, hopeless, a bit SU, self-hate

I went off of my medicine because of the debilitating side-effects it was causing.

Depressed yet relieved that the mania has gone away
My stomach hurts terribly tonight

:) I bought my brother an iced coffee :) I helped my brother with his algebra homework :star: I make some chocolate clay and some chocolate roses today :star: I got some homework done even though I stayed home from school because I felt badly because of my meds :star: I cleaned the kitchen even thou...

I got outside in the nice weather and even took my sweatshirt off for awhile

I don't know how...but PLEASE shut your dog up somehow...every time I go outside all I hear is it barking and whining in it's damn kennel. I know you don't abuse it, but it bothers everyone around you and you don't seem to give a damn...you're a dick anyway, but at least try to be considerate...I do...

Sick to my stomach and extremely tired

Depressed, sick to my stomach, a bit guilty

*I made up a test in anatomy/physiology
*I took my meds at a better time than last night
*I had a teacher e-mail my teachers to tell them about my med change so that if I'm sleeping in class they hopefully won't get mad and will send me to the nurse if needed
*I didn't SI last night

Even though I'm home sick again today, I cleaned the kitchen, studied for a couple tests, and attempted to do some homework that I'm trying to make up

Depressed and urgy...anxious and a bit panicky

I'm tired of disappointing my friends
I'm tired of hurting my little brother and my dad with this
I'm tired of having to wear a hoodie everyday to school to hide the marks and scars
I want to be able to have a life without relying on this to get through the bad times