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I cuddle with a little stuffed tiger my mom got me when I was in the third grade. This may sound childish, but when I wake up in the night crying and shaking, I hold tight to the tiger and it makes me feel better, cuz eventhough I can't see my mom anymore, I can still hang on to something that remin...

how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? I will feel better and more relaxed about what went on today. what will hurting myself bring to the situation? what will it take away from the situation? It will bring relief and pleasure, and it will take away the bad feelings that I have...

fat...very very fat...

dirty

paranoid

depressed

angry

Rachel, you are a disgusting piece of $hit. You are fat, ugly, stupid, you can never be good enough. THere are so many things you need to do and you can't do any of them. You are pathetic, so you know what you need to do, don't you...but you don't even have the courage to do that!! :evil: Rachel, yo...

I made a coping box and put all these things I like in it.
I've been doing really good in therapy lately.

I like him...but I also like her...and I don't know what to do about it

I love drinking my blood...even the blood from my period...(I'm disgusting )

I am...alive, loved by someone, good with animals, a good friend I am not...dead, thin enough, pretty, happy, normal I feel...disurbed, sick, hateful, angry at the world, dead I want...to be normal, away from all the drama, to kill the people who hurt me, to forget...to remember I need...to be able ...

lonely, though I'm not too sure why, suspicious, worried, bored

that was nice

I'm proud of myself because eventhough I have been really stressed lately I haven't hurt myself badly.
Also one of my friends was really upset today and I was able to comfort her without getting really nervous like I usually do.

I finally did my laundry (I have clean pants!! )
Also I took a long walk instead of doing SI.

School -I just need to stop worrying so much about everything that I do. Mom -I need to forget, and try to deal with the fact that I can't see her anymore for awhile. SU thinking -Try to talk to people, relax and do something to distract myself SI/depression do something fun, like make a craft or p...

you all think I'm a joke, don't you! Well FUCK YOU ALL!!

what had happened just before? I was feeling really bad about my mom and step-dad being in prision what were you thinking and feeling? Terrible, scared wanting to see my mom why did you end up hurting yourself then instead of some other time? was there an event that was the final straw? what was it...

Garth Nix and J.R.R Tolkien are good authors. Also Terry Pratchet (spelled that wrong )
Depends on the mood, but i also like Stephen King novels and short stories and True Crime novels. Sometimes scaring myself is fun.

I'm really sorry you feel down. I have that same problem when little things like a joke will trigger me. What I find helpful to do to feel a bit better especially when I'm at school , is stay away from people for awhile and do something calm that you like to do like listening to music, writing, draw...

Even though I was really triggered last night, I haven't hurt myself.

Oh I hate school! I always wear long pants and a hoodie to cover all of my skin, and I hate it when people ask me questions about it. PE class sucks when I have to change and I get in trouble all the time for refusing to take off my hoodie during the class. I think it's great how you can shrug peopl...

Nice
I gave my little brother a bag of Starburst candy at the movie theatre.

*I wish I were more at ease in social situations *I wish I could tell people how I feel *I wish that I didn't think there was some dark conspiracy behind everything people say *I wish I were a stronger person *I wish I felt like I didn't have to hide *I wish I could reverse time *I wish I could forg...