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Though I try to pretend, I am still not doing well in my recovery from my ED

I managed not to fly off the handle when a friend asked me if I had SIed today (as it really irritates me when someone asks that).

I've managed to make it through the day without SIing...that's basically all unfortunently, but at least it's something.

You jackass!! My little brother wants to beat the shit out of you because he thinks it would be funny, and it would be fucking funny to watch that shit. You piss me off when you come up with new little rules like this, just to keep us all under unnecessary control, can't even sit down to eat? You mo...

Gah, I'm having problems sticking to my meal plan, but I'm doing a lot better than I was the first week of it...still though, the want to restrict or purge is always jabbing at my mind, and the incessent ED thoughts of "I'll never be good enough" or "I hate my body" won't stop, though I'm trying dis...

Kind of happy~I got free coffee today

Nervous/anxous~Food issues and seeing a friend today, and going to work quite a while from now

Irritated~So far I've been unable to keep my New Year's resolution.

(I know it's not an emotion) I have a tummy ache (probably from the coffee )

Recently I've been seeing a nutritionist who is helping me make a meal plan, and I've been trying really hard to stick to it because I know I need to start eating healthier. I've been trying to eat all three meals with snacks in between each meal and a snack at night with my meds. Some days are bett...

I busted out all the coping skills I could think of until I fell asleep

You seem like you want to say something to me...why don't you just SAY IT!!!

I used all the coping skills I could think of until I fell asleep hey...it works

Tired, cold, and guilty about something

There's some spam post about nike shoes or something like that on main,

I'm proud of myself today because I was able to beat strong urges toSI and haven't hurt myself yet today

I wish there was nothing wrong between me and my friends, I wish people would never grow apart and that I could keep the friends I have forever

In five years I'd like... to be able to recover from my ED to be for the most part SI free doing well in college studing food science, nutrition, and culinary arts getting a good job in a career that I love moving out of the house maybe getting in a healhty, loving relationship and thinking about st...

I'm hiding cigarettes in my room and sometimes like to steal food from the grocery store...once I stole five apples and my pants almost fell down trying to leave the store...I never get caught

I'm really hungry and cold and craving a cappuchin or coffee...or some warm drink of some sort

I'm lying to everyone. I put on a fake smile and say I'm getting better whien in reality I'm getting worse. I'm sorry I can't be what everyone wants me to be...

I mentally apologize if I've ever blamed my kitty. It's a lame excuse though for me as my kitty's declawed...however she occasionally runs at me at night, bites my ankle, then runs away. She especially loves doing that when I'm carrying somethign from the kitchen to my bedroom..like hot tea. :roll: ...

Depressed~I worked my ass off on a scholarship application, and just found out I didn't get it :( Anxious~I have to go to school tomorrow and I have a lot to catch up on. Panicky~Depression and anxiety combining I suppose I guess what I'm going to do is continue to use my coping skills and try not t...