bus

anxious, uncomfortable...constipated depressed...nasty stomach cramps!

I think it's a really good idea...unique to say the least If i lived alone I think it'd definitely try it, but as I don't...it would be a bit difficult to explain a razorblade popsicle to my dad or little brother

tired, guilty, fat (I know it's not actually a feeling...can't think of another word for it) uncomfortable, depressed, anxious...nothing good

Depressed, guilty, childish, and urgy

I didn't purge today (even though I did SI )
I attempted to do some homework even though I feel extremely depressed and all I want to do is lay around and cry

*SU*
I wish you hated me...then I could kill myself and not feel so guilty just thinking about it.

Thanks for taking me to work with you today because I know you were just trying to keep me safe and didnt' mean for me to be so miserable...I'm sorry I probably made your day a lot harder than it should have been and if I told you I still SIed even when I was with you today, it would make everything...

Even though I SIed, I was able to get to a teacher at school and stop before things got any worse

I can't exactly answer this now, but as of this particular moment, because I promised my dad I wouldn't do anything until I can talk to my T this afternoon

have you taken care of your physical wounds? if not, go do that now. we'll wait. For the most part...they're fairly minor so don't need much attention what had happened just before? Nothing spicifically, just had been fighting the urge for a really long time and was sick of fighting something that ...

I need to cry, want to cry IRL, but right now I can't

Didn't want to risk anything fresh getting seen by some of my friends

I made it all the way through this conference thing, which was new and unfamiliar with a bunch of new people and everything, without panicking

...still really depressed

panicky, anxious, really depressed, urgy to SI, unsafe, hopeless

...thanks...even though we really don't get along well, you really helped me out today and I appreciate that so much, even though I'm too afraid to actually tell you in person...

I can't cry IRL...mostly I'm afraid to right now I dont' want to go to school tomorrow

I've screwed up...I feel like such a waste of space

I promised myself that I'd try as hard as I could to keep from SIing until I can see my T on Monday