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Yes, that makes perfect sense. I've never been shy about my body, except when people compliment it (and see there, i think of my body as separate from me. healthy?). I think that, yes, what happened to you might have somethign to do with your discomfort, esp. if you think it might. I just hope you c...

I think taht maybe, like a lot of other things, the way you'll not feel dirty is by understanding truth. I'd be willing to bet that along with the memory comes a barage of feelings and maybe even words. Things telling you what you are and where you belong. Maybe to feel good you have to see what hap...

You're not dirty. You're wonderful.

I think I can understand what you mean, May. If it had been an adult than you could know more that it wasn't your fault and you didn't do anyting to bring it on yourself. With another kid people might think you did something or were just 'playing doctor' and brush it off as less than the undesired a...

Oh, May *big hug* I'm so sorry to hear that happened to you. It's absolutely horrible that it did. I'm not going to challenge you but I would like to remind you of a few things. First: what happened to you was horrible, that doesn't mean you'er horrible (it doesn't mean you're any other bad adjectiv...

Ok, I've been seeing people on and off for...about a year. That's great. Only with the last T have I actually stopped (mostly stopped? nearly stopped? stopped with slips?) si-ing. She is all about dealing with things in the moment, not delving into my past and pain, which is great because all that d...

I am proud of you! And good job for finding a coping mechanism that works for you!

Right. So last week I went in to the psych center at my school and at that time I'd gone a little over two weeks without any serious si. they then contracted me to not si and they've been doing that for almost a week now. I si-ed mildly in durring a two hour period where I wasn't under contract. Tha...

Thanks That actually helps me feel better.

You sound a lot like me. :) I like you already. *hugs if you want it* I would agree about the therapist thing, or a crisis hotline. If you ever want to talk then send me a message. I'm good at responding quickly. I'm sorry you're living with your dad. That must be very hard. When I'm at home it's al...

Right, so I'm back at school. Taking 12 hours of 500 level classes. I'm also working. 8 hours in one department and hopefuly 8 as a security desk worker at night. In total I have 24 novels to read for my classes, some 5 odd projects, about 20 papers, and one short story to write. I also have practic...

No one would love me if they knew all the things I hide my words fall to the floor as tears drip though telephone line and the hands I've seen raise to the sky not praising but drowning all this time I'll try to build the arch that they need to float to you across the crystal see give me your hands ...

rain on a tin roof
getting email
making a great grade on a project
an unexpected compliment
finding a dollar on the street

I'm angry. I'm hurt. I'm scared. And I'm frustrated. I started selfinjuring again. I've never really been able to stop. But I know I need to, so I started to talk about it. I told my a few of my friends, and my room mate and my mother and sister and brother. I've told a few room mates before but the...