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I have made 12 weeks and I don't want to lose my progress. I am proud of myself and My T is too.

By my personal experiences I consider myself an SI addict because I need it just like a drug addict will need there drug. I am not sure if you can physically be addicted to SI but I believe that emotional you can be.

Right now I have some new information that I have to learn to cope with. The fact that more could have been done to prevent SA happening. The adults in my life know that my cousin abused people before and still alllowed him to have access to me and that is making me anger.

Thanks it is now eight weeks I have been SI free. I believe the day program is helping me to cope because I can bring things up in group and the staff is very surporting. I am stilling have to cope with the fact that I was SA by my cousin. It is hard but I am worth taking the time out to heal even w...

I am doing okay right now. I have been SI free now for 7 weeks. I am learning at the day hospital that when dealing with anxiety you need to find ways to slow down your mind because when having a panic anxiety attack it is fast pacing thing. I am beginning to realize that I need to stop blaming myse...

I have six reasons to keep on trying and they are my nieces and nephews because I want to be around for them a long time and be the best aunt I can be.

I am hanging in there. I have been in a day hospital now for a 1. It is going okay. I am having a hard time right now trying to cope with my aunt having to go back into a hospital because it makes me feel anxious and scared and the feelings can be overwhelming sometimes but I am able to come up with...

I am doing okay right now. I did have to go to the hospital for SU thoughts and severe depression. They put me on Prozac and I start a day program tomorrow which I think will help me out a lot.

Thanks for the advice don't worry about it being too long I could care less. I am struggle right now with depression and SI urges. I think my problem is hormares. I am thinking about seeing a DR to see if they can't give me something to fix my levels so that it will help lessen my depression because...

I am sorry that you are feeling so bad. I myself have been were you are at. One of the biggest things I strrugle with is quilt. I am so gald that you are alive. Do you have any adults or people you trust to go to? I went to youth leaders in the past. For the problem of nerves try get big deep breath...

I don't have to take the blame any longer for what you did to me!

One of the things I need to cope with right now is accepting that because my sisters were abuse as well means that the abuse was not my fault. To tell the truth I afraid of totally accepting it because it means that my cousin who was like a brother to me was a total jerk and that he never really car...

my secret is that I am scared that I will find out who I am and it will not be someone that is great.

I really don't understand how you could have Sexual abuse me. How you could have taken adventage of me when I was only 5 years old.

I am a kind and compassion person
My T and others have said that they see alot of bright potient in me but I find it hard to believe at times.

I hope that my mircle of loving myself will come to pass
I hope that all on bus will find the hope and strength they need
I hope that one I will change the world

I am worried that I will not know who I am that maybe there is no idendity for me beside being a victim of SA.
I am worried that I will never feel better about who I am
I worried that my dreams and goals I have for the future will not come true.

Today I had thereapy we made a plan for me to day to keep me safe. I said it will take a mircle for me to feel made and I know that that mircle can happen but it will take time. One of the things I am thinking about trying to do is maybe write letters to my cousin but not send them to express how I ...

I am still trying to get over it and I have been in counseling about 2 years with a few months in between. It takes time to heal from a pain this strong.

In therepy today we made a self-soothing list
1. attending church
2. Bubble bathe
3. Hugs from sister
4. Journaling
5.Deep Breaths
6.Popcorn with a good movie
7. Christian Rock Music
8. Keeping myself safe
9. Talking to my therapist.