bus

that's a tough one. i guess i would say to myself in that situation, dont let it affect you during the good times. forget it, wahtever it is, ignore it, deny it, dont look at it, and enjoy the good. then you have something to look back on when things are bad and it makes the good all the more sweete...

*lang*




becasue i wont let the fuckers beat me anymore. they will not win. i've gotten this far. i'm not giving up now, after all the crap.


and my little girls. i'd do anything for them. they even help me go to school. so i can get a job and look after myself so i can keep seeing them

i did the best i could in the situation. i did a good job. you have no right to go off at me the way you did, blame me when there was no blame to be laid anywhere. you know the way i think of myself, you know how much your anger and stress makes me feel bad for not doing enough. don't take it out on...

guilty, ashamed for not being good enough

angry because i should not ahve to feel guilty and ashamed with the current situation.

hungover becasue, well, i am hungover

i diddnt sleep all day, i lost weight and i finnally finished a peice of fanficiton i have been writing for nearly two years!!!

swallow all your bitter pills, that's what makes you beautiful
- big machine, goo goo dolls

gets how i'm feeling dwon to the last word. hate having meds to be normal.