bus

abandoned
anxious
inadequate
ashamed
disappointed
afraid
sad
"gutted"

i want to get drunk to forget the things that
bothered me today and go numb for a little
while

scared
sad
in pain
woke up from a really bad nightmare
i don't feel safe

i don't feel safe around you. i think you're creepy and
have bad character. you think you're a victim but
you're the opposite. very much an offender.

hey,

this is my clothesline. please don't use it.

seriously

frustrated, sad, aggravated, hungry. i've stayed on here too long because i don't want to face some things that are "waiting" for me when i get off.

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? "bored" or something and a little lonely What I have done to ease this discomfort so far? What else can I do that won't hurt me? i ate but i don't think that was a good choice. walking would be good but i don't want to. How do ...

a little panicky

helped a neighbor dig their car out of the snow

physically ill
tired, unrested even though i slept
upset, not sure why
a bit scared and a little clingy/needy

*jump in the shower
* get some breakfast going
* clean the kitchen, basically get going with things and distract myself; dont linger in the thoughts/restlessness

i made a vegetarian shepherd's pie today
an improvisation that turned out surprisingly
good

i got a ton of work done in the house today
and i made this really good vegan sugar free
gluten free apple pie today. my own recipe.
was so good. and healthy!

*hungry
*lonely
* a little unsure what direction to take

make breakfast
make a to do list
eat
then come back here

* ill, upset stomach * like something isn't "right" * extremely emotional * very tired but with insomnia so i cant seem to sleep * upset with the neighbors for making noise at night * like my nervous system is extra reactive * shaky and weak * extremely sorry for myself * my head feels like a "ballo...

angry
lonely
frustrated
lack of direction

*put on some coffee
*take a shower
*make breakfast
*make a to do list and prioritize
*do at least one load of laundry
*clean the kitchen and living room
*look over my homework from last week
*clean out and start organizing my notebook

pms :blfrwn: :x :evil: :bad-words: i don't know what i can do okay well, i've had a hot shower and went back to bed for awhile. i'm going to class now and am seriously considering buying wine and chocolate later. a friend told me that drinking wine and eating chocolate in the bathtub with a candle b...

hungry and thirsty (just woke up early and was unusually hungry)
afraid, fearful
tired
lonely

*eat
*take a shower
*take acetomenophen (this kind isn't even addictive but i feel like i need it every day)
* go to the store to get stuff d needs for school

ooh! i got another one. wearing headphones (or
earplugs) in crowded places. sometimes i feel
"super tuned" in to other people's voices, tones,
gestures, movement. so to shut out the sound
part helps (when it is safe to do so.)

"disgruntled," good word!

in pain
extremely fearful
highly emotional
on edge
lonely
shakey

*acetomenophen
*hot shower
*start doing things on my to do list
*put on some soothing music