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I picked up my meds that my friend holds... even though I didn't need a refill yet. I guess I wanted to be able to be able to OD again. I don't know what's going on in my head. I'm so confused. I don't want her to know I have them. I want to be able to have those options again I guess. I hate that ...

ED?/SA I can't seem to quit. My mind is set on destruction I think... in any way I can get it. In the past 48 hours, all I've had is a cup of coffe with cream and sugar and a few chips last night with salsa (like 5 chips because otherwise the person would have been suspicious). My doctor and t don't...

Some of the best coping skills are located at the top of the coping page under Scarily Vast list of Coping skills. It has a whole big range of things. You should be able to find something to help you out during crisis situations. Could you get involved with a group of some sort? Get kind of a sponso...

Why do you feel no one cares?

You're still stuck on the fence. One leg on each side... not willing to go one way or another. You know that He will spew you out of His mouth. He wants nothing to do with you if you don't put Him FIRST in your life. You have to learn to TRY. You don't even fucking try! You don't read your Bible an...

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:wavey: Bill. I can't imagine what life is like for you. I could see where it would be very, very difficult to be a male with BPD. We had a male in our DBT group... but he was able to handle that. He gave the rest of us some very good perspective. Where most BPD women have been abused by men... it's...

restless, depressed, agitated, sick to my stomach ... and urgy.

I PM'ed you Bill. I thought that might be the easiest way. Hope you're doing okay.

Take care,
ST

I don't know how much I can do here on the internet... but I can listen. I'm sorry the health care profession is letting you down. Insurance sucks in the US too. I guess it sucks everywhere, but if pdoc (psychiatrist) says you need to be in... you get in (in places like Canada). And you don't have t...

I hope things go well with your counselor and you when you start back in May. Not TOO long from now. I'm really glad you were able to keep yourself safe last night. Your hobbies, star gazing and looking at your aquariums sound like really good, relaxing things. I think you're doing pretty good. You ...

You have a lot of hurt in your post. I'm so sorry that you feel you have no one to turn to. I'm not sure how to respond to your post really.. but I will try. I want you are worth more than the people around you are projecting on you. DBT counselors do have a rule that you can't see or talk to them 2...

Sorry... me thinks I was one of those who didn't understand either. Sorry if that frustrated you.

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urgy, anxious, uptight and a bit of fear (scared) creeping in

scared, depressed, sad

*reading along and hearing your frustration*

Love you,
ST

like crap
tired
su urges
si urges
generally yucky