bus

i wish i didn't have to go to t appt tomorrow
i wish i could talk to my friend
i wish i didn't have these urges
i wish i didn't care
i wish i didn't worry people so much
i wish others didn't care
i wish i cared about my weight
i wish i could just die

scared

scared
lonely
lost

i'm beginning to get worried about my behavior and what it means. either i'm attention seeking, or i really need help. i can't honestly say which it is! i want to keep hurting myself, sometimes i want to die. i want to go buy a gun. i want to blast the shit out of something. destroy something. make ...

i wish that i would stop si'ing
i wish i didn't have to go back to work
i wish i could figure out what is going on in my head

i wish i didn't hurt so much i wish people didn't hurt each other i wish children were protected from harm i wish i lived closer to my friend i wish i had better coping skills i wish i didn't think about si or su i wish i didn't have a problem with desiring alcohol i wish my h. hadn't cheated on me...