bus

why can't you leave me the fuck alone? why do you have to continually bother me? why can't you just let things go? i don't know if i love you. i don't know if i ever loved you. i can't feel any of that right now. all i feel is blank. the only emotion i feel when you're around is anger. the sight of...

angry
frustrated
mad
sad
hating self
overwhelmed
urgy

not sure if i'd call myself an addict... but definitely use alcohol and my perscription pills in ways to knock myself out at times, though i too am trying to use different coping strategies to combat that and si urges. hope you find more of what you need on bus. :1hug: <---- if okay peace to you, st

tired
urgy
scared
angry

urgy
scared

sick
worried
awake
manicky

therapy is usually a good option if you find a counselor/therapist that you are comfortable with. if you have particular problems with males or females, you may want to keep that in mind when choosing a therapist. i would highly suggest this is you are having a lot of problems. i know it's difficult...

i'm terrified to write this, but more terrified to leave it in my head. i worry that i'm physically/emotionally abusing my son, and i have to tell my t. tomorrow. i'm so scared about the outcome. i'm so upset about what i've become. i'm so worried about my son and how he is developing. i want him t...

i wish i didn't have to talk to my t. tomorrow.

I went to DBT tonight, even though I didn't really want to.

scared
lonely
triggery
relieved.
terrified
angry
hopeful

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scared
hopeless
terrified
depressed
f.i.n.e. fine

i wish my friend lived A LOT closer to me

i wish i could stop si'ing
i wish i could get myself to exercise
i wish i had more self control

haven't followed through with my plans.

scared
mad
lonely
angry
proud
hopeful
fearful

i wish my friend was okay.

shameful
guilty
worried
hopeful

i wish i could stop worrying people.
i wish these thoughts would go away.
i wish i could go visit my friend NOW.
i wish i wasn't such a punk.