bus

i secretly hoped i was pregnant just so i would have a seemingly serious reason to say fuck florida and move back to you. i don't think my love is enough of one.




pm's okay

sad.
happy. [for the most part]
and a bit overwhelmed.

not doin so bad i suppose.

i wish being strong didn't hurt so much.

i wish that taking steps to be better weren't so hard.

i wish my nightmares would stop so my jaw doesn't hurt when i wake up.

....i wish i had him with me.

i wish i could get really stoned...and float away for a while.

i've seen these! we have them at a store in the local mall. i thougth they were really cute.

I'm worried that i won't be what i truly want to be.

sleepy. [its still too early! ]

so much in love.

but depressed because i'm so far away right now

excited for the future.

stuffy. [sinus allergies]

tired.

disgusting.

OTEP LIVE.

my boyfriends reactions to me being all hyper and crazy.
me and my bf snuggling at ihop after a night of moshing and crowd smushing.

tired and spent.

but absolutely amazing. i saw my idol live.
a little dissapointed. i didn't get to meet her face to face.

loved.
and in love.

i found the pills my mom had hidden from me before i left. i'm visiting right now. i leave wednsday. i've already taken some. and i have enough stashed away to last me for a while. my boyfriend thinks it was just a one time thing because my brother was stoned and i don't smoke....he doesn't know th...

*SCREAMS* WHY DID YOU HAVE TO TURN OUT TO BE SUCH A HORRIBLE HORRIBLE HYPOCRITE!!!?? WHY DID YOU LIE!? WHY DID YOU EVEN BOTHER WITH ME IF ALL I WAS WAS A WAY TO GET BACK AT HER!!!?? YOU USED TO LOVE ME!!???? THEN WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU TREAT ME LIKE THAT!! i hope you and her both have a happy life t...

*TRIGGERS* i'm craving painkillers so badly that my body aches. i want to cut worse on my arms than i have in a really long time. i feel worthless. and fat. and like he deserves someone so much better. someone who isn't fucked up. ****SI ED***** i hate myself for eating. i was doing so good. and the...

worthless.
in pain.
worried.
anxious.


and loved too. he does that.

:redstar: my little brother when he passes out from terrorizing us all day. :redstar: my boyfriend when he's trying to concentrate on something. (the look on his face is priceless) :redstar: Happy FunTime Gunther. :redstar: falling asleep mushed against my boyfriends chest/side, nestled in the crook...

thank you!

Catylyx

please help, its refusing to let me sign in or anything! i've tried 2 different email accounts but i'm dead certain that i didnt change that at all!

i tried but it didn't work,

and when i tried retrieving a lost password it said my e-mail wasnt the right one...
>_<

sorrytat my account has decided to at itself! lol

aaah!!

mine has been doing the same thing. i was away for a while so i didnt know till recent.
could someone please help? my original name is:

Catylyx


thank you!!