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Why don't you have the decency to be honest??
you arent that fazed by what i feel, you are fazed by what people will think of you, coz you're a coward and i didnt deserve that!

i never used to care who or what went into my body, but now i am trying to recover. I am trying to care what happens to my body and me. If you give me time things will be back as they were. Right now i ant be with you, but it doesnt mean i dont want you in my life. Please, please dont leave me why ...

great idea!! i like it. i used to make beaded braclets to stop myself SI'ing, so now there is further use for all the random braclets...tahnks!

o man all the time... the longer i go without the more vivid. I like your explanaition like outher addictions and the thoughts consuming... it's soooooo true

Why do I feel I need to hurt myself? What has brought me to this point? i feel worthless... failing everything! It's my first year SI free and my first taste of failure. I feel likfe SI kept me on track and i am falling apart more and more lately Have I been here before? What did I do to deal with i...

i'm happy i met you and have you in my life...

I'm on my way to the pub now, but i havent SI'd to my urges today because i am scared how far i will go... I have been free for quite a while now and am scared the urges will all build up to one big session and i wont know when to stop... so i tell myself not to start

i've made a bag (patchhwork so it would take longer), Made two tangtops tonight and am on this board now. Caught up on my uni work becaquse that is part of the reason i wanted to...

how i feel now would be exactly how my bedroom is... I haven't finished the paint yet - i feel incomplete. There is mess everywhere - i feel so confused and all over the place The walls are white - nothing. The unfinished is dark grey scurting (sp?) I painted and messed it up myself - i am responsib...

I wish i was at peace with myself
I wish i knew what love is
i wish i wasnt hiding
I wish i could fly
I wish people would stop leaving my life
I wish i could articulate
I wish i could tell them and have acceptane not judgment
i wish i knew who i am

D- i'm a part of you so have to love you somehow, but i dont know you. You were never there and when you were, you were outta your mind and only made me want to hate you more. M- stop talking about how good you want to be and how sorry you are for the past. Act on it. Show me you want me here now w...

:star: Drawing/art about how i am feeling at that moment or/ how i want to feel :star: I have a huge thing with quotes... so i will look for new ones to inspire me or to articulate how i feel. Then to keep myself busy i will write them into my book and read all the other ones i have written at diffe...

Everyone around me: I'm trying to stop cutting. I cannot deal with you right now, just leave me alone. Don't talk to me. I'm having a hard enough time just living...I criticize myself enough, I don't need you to fucking add on to the shit I have to put up with. ~Diamond~ i hear ya, and that's prett...