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tired but peacful. Last night another resident got very upset and started screaming. I'm right now very greatful for the quiet.

C

I did the dishes and made my bed this morning.
I cleaned the shower even though I didn't want to.
I also cleaned the toliet.

C.

psychosis will sometimes pass with time, usually needs meds. But I'm hard to medicate. I often end up on meds like thorazine, prolixin, haldol. Things you don't want to take. But it's starting look like I have no choice. I have lots of playdoh. And lots of coloring books. I've been sitting with my d...

I deleted my post here last night, but I'm recereating it now. I'm currently psychotic, worried one of my friends is angry with me because i caught her in the act of lying to me how will this situation or feeling change if i hurt myself? My firend will either blow up in anger, or be walking on eggsh...

scared
upset
in need of hug
unsure about living
like crying until I can't breathe....

I'm really glad I took the time to read this post. I'm about to start a treatment program and as basic and corny as some of this stuff seems to some of you, to some of us it's honestly things that we have trouble getting through our heads because the ED behavior is so ingrained in our day to day lif...

Cravings for certain things can mean different things. Craving salt can mean you are low in certain vitamins minerals, necessary nutrients. Craving sugar can be low blood sugar....or depending on the type of sugery item you are craving it can mean a variety of other things. It might be a good idea t...

I just an error message saying "debug mode" and now I've signed back in and I can't tell what I have and haven't read.... Just thought I'd let you guys know...


-C.

*please comment-pm* I feel rejected by the world. My throat is bleeding again and really hurts. My mother is capable of emotionally hurting me more than anyone else - and has many times. *SA* * * * * I'm still not over the "sexual assult" that my family doesn't know about. And never will, as far as ...

*warm hugs*

It's nice to find another person grieving. Although I'm just grieving over loss of a beloved neighbor dog that I often took care of, and it seems like such a nothing compared to what you're dealing with, I don't deal well with death.


-c.

Asking was easiest. My mom got it down and was very understanding about my needing it right now. Sometimes I feel silly at my age (21), carrying my doll around the house like I did as a child (I also have another doll tucked away upstairs that I want very badly...my said at some point she's going th...

my rice pillow is much like a heating pad. It's just regular, dry rice. I put it in the microwave and heat it up and then I hug it to me. or I have cashmere liner for the hot watter bottle and I'll fill the bottle full of hot water (we have a thing on our kitchen sink that puts out boiling hot water...

I need to get a blanket that really is mine . All the ones we have don't really belong to me... I have a favorite stuffed animal...but my mom put my doll at the top of my closet and I can't reach it now. And I want my doll very badly as she's a major comfort object....it's like it's been put just ou...

I'm feeling SU and really need comfort. I respond mostly to touch, but I've got no one in my family who really gives hugs or who would sit and hold me. I have I special pillow that is filled with rice and heats up and is comforting, but what else can I use? (I've already taken a shower and fixed my ...

I read children's books and color. While I'm at the computer I'll look on amazon for books to read and pictures to print and color.

I'd get up and leave the computer to do something comforting, but when I'm like this I first need to calm down more or else I will hurt myself. I know myself well enough to know that.

-C.

A close friend (jess) is having a hard a hard time and going back through ECT again. (I've had ECT, so I know what it's like to go through) I'm very concerned for her. I'm also feeling very lonely and in need of a friend, clearly my friend who is going back through ECT isn't someone to be leaning on...

This is something from my personal development group....I don't know what book this is out of, but it's something we all do at times. I'll put in red the one I most often do. _________________________________ <center>Eight Limited Thinking Patterns</center> 1. Filtering: You focus on the negative de...

I don't want to be a pest about this, but in the past on bus, there were not so many triggering subject titles. I really think mods and admins need do a lot to keep the boards safe, but I'm no longer comfortable on main. Just seeing post subjects and I'm tense and freaked out and suddenly feel my po...